Sunday, May 27, 2012


  These days, my life have been evolving around my lab and home plus a few moments when I chat with a few frens on FB and Hp. When I am at the lab, I work... When I am at home, I work... There seems to be no breaks in between both places, WORK is my main task.

 In the Lab, I work to get my Masters and to ensure that my mice is living a happy life before I use them for experiments. At Home, I need to settle my Dad's shop plus a few sessions of reading papers that I had gathered during the day.

Having Work as a main point is tiring especially when things happened unexpectedly. My lab's AHU broke down due to an electrical surge therefore spent a major part of the day to move them to rooms that have air-con. Yeah, my mice are fussy, they need a room with a temperature of 22 degrees Celsius or else they will start to eat their pups or die which is a no no for me. Then, came home and I need to settle stuff that my bro neglected to do. Argued with the parents... somehow,its easy for them to say that we only disturb u on the weekends je.

I need to rest, to unwind my brains, to stop thinking.. literally be in a comatose state to reset and reboot for the week ahead.

To enter that comatose state, I do not need to be on a bed/ watching Tv (it does help though). I just need a place to throw my worries away or a person who will just blab without me having to solve their probs or hear the same punchline over and over again.

U know the feeling that u get when u hold that bantal busuk or ur blanket.. I need to recreate that in some way or method. Just lose myself in oblivion without caring if my words will hurt others or how ppl may affect me. That safe feeling is lost when u get older, carrying more responsibilities.

Goal for the next 6 mths: find somewhere/something/someone that could give me the security to lose myself

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

Cancer is caused by mutations;our Dna replicates but sumtimes the replication goes wrong and we have a faulty cell which causes abnormality.. some cells will die/be remove by the body. Cancer cells happened cos of improper removal.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

Not necessarily, some are regulars. 

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.

Failure of activation of pathway causes the immune system to not detect the cancer cells. 

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

Partly true.. Some cancers are caused by EBV and some who have erratic lifestyle do not get it.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

The most important factor is getting enuff exercise, supplements might help but again too much of anti-oxidants are also bad for the body.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

To date, only Cisplatin and her sisters have high toxicity levels, other drugs like metformin or DCA have low toxicity. Kemp oil and other herbal alternatives are available but is not being sold by the industry players.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.


8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

Normally, Doctors will do surgery, then chemo and radiation will follow. It also depends on the body and the will power of the person to fight the disease.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

True. that's why chemo and radiation is done periodically.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

No, it does not causes the above. only 10-20% cases occurs naturally. 

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to STARVE the cancer cells by not feeding it with foods it needs to multiple.

What cancer cells feed on:

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Note: Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells will starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells.

To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water--best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

Only point D is true.. the rest is bullshit. Coffee, tea and chocolates are anti-oxidants, a moderate amount is good, wine also helps. Scientists like myself are hypothesizing that cancer cells/tumor have 2 different methods of growing; 1) they need glucose especially those cells who are at the outer surface while the inner part/core does not need. This is why DCA and Metformin works on cancer cells.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines will become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

False. Even though there is toxic buildup, a diet of vegetables and fiber will cure it,

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

Our body does not work that way, certain enzymes work on certain substrates. The protein cover is more like a membrane. 

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

True.  The methods of causing apoptosis varies.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor.

True like all other diseases 2.

Anger, unforgiving and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.

True, but it does not cause cancer.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

False. see point 11.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

A proper break up

Q: hey, I think we cannot go on....

 I: why? Q: ur 2 nice 2 me... I think I do not deserve this..

 I: oh.. so being nice is bad

 Q: nolah..its me.. I think....

 I: oklah.. since u really want this..I cannot force u

Q: thanks

 I: but before I go, I really want to say this ur a screw up, u spend hours in uni, learning about a field but u did not use the knowledge u have learnt in ur daily life.. u know what are ur weaknesses but u do not want to improve them. Yet, u complained that ur stupid..if ur stupid, then work on what u are lacking. Do not just say that ur stupid and let it be. U often say that ppl played u out but u let them play u out by saying nothing to them,do not expect ppl to know what ur thinking about..if u like someone 100%, then and say that I like u 2, do not just wait till they grow tired of waiting for u. The other thing, u say that u have no more money but I see that u spend like a king.. yeah, ur parents can afford it but what about when they stopped being ur cash cow.....

 Q: erm...

 I: do not interrupt, u have to learn to live ur own life, ur frens are dragging u down, they are also stupid and wasting their time.. u want to keep being the victim in every issue, but do u know that ur hurting ppl/making them not wanting to be with u... u think that life is all about fun and games.. The main and biggest prob about u is u just think and not acting. Do u really think that ppl would keep giving stuff to woo if u do not the very least give them back sumting.. u need not buy stuff or plan sumting big.. u shuld just make more time for them, send them a sms or give them a call.. Think about it....

Q: u bitch... who do u think ur?

I: this is who I am...Good nite