Thursday, October 28, 2010

A visit to Pure Blood town

On Tuesday,I went to an Ivory Tower which is fully manned by the Purebloods. I was intimidated by the sheer size of the pure blood population. I felt really like an outsider. Just imagine,a Mudblood who dared to enter a town full of Purebloods. Scary.

Of cos,u can find a few Death Eaters in that town. So what I'm mudblood,most Purebloods are either mixed with Muggle parentage or have a bit of Halfblood in their veins.

There I was,at the gates of the Ivory Tower, getting instructions from the Gatekeeper who is a Death Eater who thinks that I'm an expert on finding my way around that town. His instructions for reaching the castle were "take 3,take 3,take 9,u will see a great round building,report to the HEPA." The translation of his instructions were: at the 1st roundabout,at the 2nd roundabout take the 2nd exit,then take the 2nd exit,then on the 3rd roundabout, take the 3rd exit. The administrator's office is located at the Flower Block.

Seriously, I thought with the death of Lord Voldy,these Death Eaters would see the err of their ways but it seems very unlikely to happen. I do hope that the present Minister could change their perceptions on creed.

Personally, I wouldn't bet on it.

Monday, October 25, 2010

7th month: Trials and Temptations

Most of my posts about the monthly anniversaries have been sweet and nice unlike this one which is a bit sour.

During the week leading up to Jino's bday celebration, I been cajoling the bf to join us for the celebration but he declined it until at a point that he said that the point of having a bf is not to tayang kat org which I strongly disagreed cos I wanted to show him the people that I hang out with. For record,he also refuses to meet up with my gfs and besties.

On the eve of the meet up,I being adamant,kept asking him to follow me until he said sumting that make me really upset and angry enuff to leave his tokens of love; ring and keychain at his place. I really wanted to break off with him at that point.

After the meet up, I realized that I was being dumb and wanted him so badly (yeah,I'm easily dipujuk type). When I was getting ready to shower, I saw this comment on FB from a lecturer of mine, he sorta asked me to remember why I fell in love with Rizal in the 1st place,was it due to his promise to socialize with my frens or what.

So I went to his place with his favorite ice cream in tow and we had a long discussion.

Somehow,this matter made me realized one thing,sumtimes being deeply in love isn't enuff, u need to learn to tolerate each other at times.

Ps:Somehow, I suspect that his meeting with the yamcha gang had traumatized him....

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Baka Boyfren

Hi,its Rizal again...

I think u all know that my bf is so dumb at times,worrying about things that he should not be worrying...

To Baka Bf,just be urself,k.

Image = Object ?

Someone's shout out in FB keeps lingering in my mind,somehow his words made an impression on me. He reminded me of an objective that I had forgotten a long time ago,sumting that I realized that I won't be able to be rite now. To the lovers out there,how do u perceive urself? As a Boyfriend material or a Husband material?

What's the difference? Why do I fret so much about those 2 words when I'm not going to get married? Does the status of being a husband or a boyfriend makes any difference?

According to Merriam-Webster:

1) Husband: a male partner in a marriage/union

2) Boyfriend:
a frequent or regular male companion in a romantic or sexual relationship

Have u spotted the difference?

So the question is how many are u are the 1st category?

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Ur never alone

In the light of the recent gay suicides in USA,I wonder how many of these cases are in Msia. I guess,we'll never know what is the exact number of cases or whether there are any in Msia due to the fact that our society never made room for LGBT. Although LGBT exists in Msia,we are often shunned to a corner,Society know us as the people who are flamboyant,who are sissies or those who are morally corrupted and deserves go to HELL.

Unfortunately,its sad to say that there are gay suicide cases in this region which is covered up by families who want to save face.I,personally had encountered came across one case but I failed to help him and in the end,he found salvation in a bottle of pills.

Readers, I know some of you,at certain point of time,had thought of giving up on LIFE, felt that ur worthless and undesired by Loved ones. I know how it feels to be different at so many levels if compared to the rest,the feeling of being alone is unbearable.

My dearest readers, I want u to know that HOPE is always with u,u can always find HELP in various places. Find a fren/an outlet that u can trust and let it all out. Always remember that u are as worthy to walk this Earth and leave ur print on it as the guy beside u, Never let anyone take ur pride and dignity away.

No matter how dark today is,the light will always shine thru

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Stand by me

Things that truly matter

Someone once state that Fame,Money & Popularity are essential stuff that everyone needs. Yeah,they are important.Duh,that's the reason why we are bloggers,rite? We want to be in the spotlight. But seriously, would Fame,Money & Popularity would be enuff?

At a certain point of my life,I realized that I'm the happiest when:

1) I'm having a cup of coffee with a fren while lazing at the coffee shop
2) I return home to find a warm dinner waiting for me
3) a fren/lover is happy
4) I'm supporting a fren when they are in need
5) A fren/lover listens to my whines and supports me thru my time of need
6) I have a good book and a hot cuppa of Milo nearby

Money,Fame & Popularity are what everyone wants but if they make ur life empty or when they make u lose ur own identity and become a clon,will u be happy and satisfied?

Friday, October 15, 2010


50:30:20 is the magic equation for financial stability. Let me elaborate,k.

50% of ur pay shuld go to the NEEDS category; bills, car loans, house loans,parents allowance and study loans should be under this heading. I know most are either think of/getting a new house but make sure that ur house loan is a third of ur pay and u shuld have saved up 10% of the value of the house that u want to buy. Example if ur aiming for the rm 200k - 250 K price range,u shuld have at least have rm 20 -25 K in ur bank acc. Although,in Budget 2011,we don't need to fork out the 10% for the loan but we need to have money for renovating the house.

30% of ur pay shuld go to the WANTS category. This category is for items like movies,eating out,luxury items and etc. If ur thinking of buying a Monet,use the money from this portion.

Lastly, the 20% is for SAVINGS. This is super important cos this portion will help u to overcome the uncertainties of life such as medical fees, unemployment and etc. U also could use this portion for investment. For beginners, I would advise to invest in Govt. Bonds or ASN or BSN. This type of investment have the lowest risks and ergo the lowest profit. For ppl who have solid background in investing,its better to put your money into them but pls don't put all in one basket. The key is to diversify ur investment.

Citation: Reader Digest Oct 2010

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

All the small things do really matter

Some of the bloggers in my blog roll (me included) have posted about their dream guy or potential bf's criteria but none paid any attention to the small things like:

1) distance
2) availability
3) hobbies
4) education background
5) maturity

Personally, after getting someone with the right body,personality and face, I do try to check my "All the small things list".

1) Maturity

Is he smart enuff to detect when I am unhappy or stressed out? Does he know how to cheer me up? Can he keep up with my thoughts?

2) Education level

A person's education often reflects his level of maturity therefore I prefer those with a degree.Its a bonus if he is in the same field as me or some other fields that means sumting.Having a degree in Roman Studies does not qualify.

3) Distance

How far is his place? Do I need to drive for 2 hours before I reach his place? Is his place convenient to go to or its at dunno which unknown corner of the country? I prefer to date ppl who are in the Klang Valley cos I'm in the Klang Valley. (no need a Phd to figure that out kan?)

4) Availability

How often can I meet him? Is he often busy? Does he goes abroad a lot? This factor links to distance. And of cos, how often can Lil Ichi gets his workout and does he need to go to a hotel for it? (I'm a poor man so don't expect me to fork rm 50 every time to get laid) Hint: having a house/room is definitely a bonus

5) Hobbies

As much as Lil Ichi loves to get a good workout, it will be nice if we have other things to do other than humping. Hobbies do reflect a person's maturity.

Conclusion, Rizal have high scores in the list therefore I'm his bf.

Ps: I have moved on,u shuld 2.

Monday, October 11, 2010

What's love?

I was browsing thru the internet when I found this quote and somehow its words are what LOVE is to me.

True love is the only just and holy war. 2 frens pledge loyal opposition to one another. I vow that I will defend the integrity of my separate being and respect the integrity of your being, We will meet only as equals; I will present myself to you in the fullness of my being and will expect the same of you.I will not cower,apologize or condescend.Our covenant will be only to love one another justly and powerfully; to establish and cherish inviolable boundaries; to respect our separate sanctuaries. We will remain joined in the sweet agony of dialogue, the contest of conversation,the dialectic of love until we arrive at a synthesis.

Sam Keen,Fire in the Belly

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Angels or Demons

Sori,I wanted to blog about this last nite after watching Numbers season (don't know which),it was an episode where they were investigating an Islamic group which was suspected of supporting terrorist in Pakistan. One of the investigating officer was truly islamophobic,he was convinced that every muslim is evil until they found out that the Islamic group was infiltrated by an IRA agent.

One of the concepts that were shown in the episode was Escher's Angel and Demons (see above). This concept is based on human perception; hear too much negative points about a person,u'll hate him even though u never see him before or hear too much positive points about a person,u'll adore him even though u have no proof of him doing good. Ergo,when a person sees the diagram for the 1st time,he will either see demons or angels in the motif. Oh yeah btw,its a kind of anagram.

Thursday, October 7, 2010


I watch how the moon sits in the sky in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give light to the moon assuming
The moon’s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me
You do favors and then rapidly
You just turn around and start asking me
about things that you want back from me

I am having finals rite now,am so stressed,not with the paper nor with lover nor with the uni mates but with my dad. Yeah,its the same drama again and again, son wants to be good so he follows what the Dad says,peace reigns until the Son disobeys the Dad commands due to his own needs,the Dad gets mad.......

I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don’t understand
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I’ll be just like you
and step on people like you do and
Run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm, used to be strong
Used to be generous but you should’ve known
That you’d wear out your welcome
now you see how quiet it is, all alone

The funny thing is the Dad wants the Son to be a RESPONSIBLE MAN blahx4 but when the Son takes control of his own life,the Dad isn't happy with it. So tell me,Dad,what do u really want from me? I have given u almost everything by putting ur needs 1st before mine. I don't to do what most ppl would do in situation; get job,get house,stay away from family. Why are u pushing me to do it?

I’m sick of the tension, sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place, to feed your greed -
While I find a place to rest

Monday, October 4, 2010

Gay's views on love relationships

I was chatting with a gay fren in the States earlier when he said that the failure of trying to change the law regarding gay marriage is due to the lack of unity among gays. Surprised rite?

It seems that there are 3 views regarding gays and relationship which I will explain below.

1) The majority

Gay meets Gay. They embark on a relationship 2gether. A few years later,get a house,try to get married or join hands in civil marriage,have a child or 2,get a dog and retire.

This flow of events are often what majority of gays want in life besides getting the Cs.They just want to settle down and raise a family or at the very least have a shot of normalcy.

2) The minority

Gay meets Gay,Gay fuck Gay,Gay left Gay. Repeat

This flow of events are what Gays who says that since guys have a tendency to cheat therefore gays cannot maintain a long term relationship. This group of Gays shuns the idea of getting married and blahx3. They labeled those who want otherwise are copying the ways of the Heteros. I mean why must Gays have the same lifestyle as Heteros after all we are different,we fly solo.

3) The in-betweens

They have partners but they do sleep around others at the same time. They take the benefits of being loyal to one and being free willed. Often than not,they will have certain agreements like,no guys are to be brought home or no guys are allowed to be the fuckee and etc.

In conclusion,I agreed that we're a diverse group from ranging from twink-lovers to slaves but in some issues,we have to unite and put our differences aside after all,we are the minority.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

3 in 1

Sori,I have no idea for the title of this post so its going to be a combi of things.

1) Mr Sun is temporarily back

Yeah,I hate rain. Rain makes me depressed. Rain spoils my mood. I love Sun. Sun makes me happy. Sun is good. FYI,I'm not crazy but this true. When it rains,we can't go out,when we can't go out,we're stuck at home and when we're stuck at home,boredom sets in.

One of the reasons why I'm glad that Mr Sun is back cos I love to study at the lakes in Shah Alam especially during exam period. Rain only promotes sleep in me.

2) Starting a new project soon

The burger business is going to end at the end of the year. So I need to find ways to get money so that I can buy more I NEED HOUSE products later on besides the translation projects are draining my energy and I get no offers for the data entry job.

The actual reason of trying to earn more money is to able to do sumting for my loved ones, I want to be able to support them in their time of need. I want to be able to stop whatever I'm doing and focus on the person 24/7.


More details of this new project will be reveal later on.

3) Married men more desirable?

Erm...Erm... erm. Can't say much about this cos I'm afraid that someone might use a scalpel to remove my treasures.This statement is based on perspectives. Some do spend more time looking at mirror when they are in a relationship and sumtimes they do things that make us say," I wish this fellow is my bf,he treats his lover well." But again some ppl aren't bother to impress their lovers much and do act like they are still single.

I wouldn't say much on this topic cos I see the scalpel in HIS hands de. Anyway,have a good weekend ahead.

Friday, October 1, 2010

BFs ain't toys

A few years back, a fren who was in the courting phrase told me that if he ever get into a relationship with the current guy,he will break it off after he graduated. I was speechless when he said it,after all, a heart is not sumting that u can give away so easily and get it back when u want it.

Fast forward 3 yrs later, his bf came and told us that the fren wants to break it off. I registered no shock to the exclamation but I was kinda sad,I mean after everything that they had been thru,the fren wanted to break up,it seems that the 3 yrs that they had been 2gether was worthless. If ur wondering whether there were disputes between them that force the hand of the fren,well,no,they are a lovely dovey couple.

Now,both of them are living separate lives and the fren is finding a new one.

I wonder whether the term "forever in love" is just an imaginary term coined by those hopeless romantics.

I know that I'm a nobody to judge him but don't u think that all the heartaches,happy moments and memories are a waste. Again I wonder whether his decisions is based on his looks,who knows maybe,he thinks that he is handsome,sure got demand one but again LOOKS are temporary. Wonder what he'll do when the wrinkles becomes more prominent.