Happy 2011

Yeay,This blog is officially 2 years old de.. Thank you,my readers for supporting me throughout the changes that I had made and I'm reverting to the original format of my blog. Thank you and may this year bring JOY,WISDOM and HEALTH to ur lives. MUACK

Reflections (2010)

4 more days till we say Hi to 2011, a brand new year to look ahead to,full with new hopes,dreams and aspirations.

Christmas was a lively event as my Aunt from Spore came down and spent the weekend showing them around while trying to finish up my lab reports and whatnot, thesis is a still a pending matter, approval for internship application is also in the pending bin.

I found LOVE,lost it,found it again,lost it again and now I'm in LOVE. Each love story that I created has never the same plot nor ending and somehow LOVE have taught me a lesson about who I am,what I seek and what I don't need in life.

Friendship is sumting that is never lacking in my life,Love may come and go but FRIENDSHIP always stays with u. I had a fall out with a good fren and managed to patch things back,now the both of us realized our tolerance levels for each other. I also found a few new frens who I care for and hope that our friendship would continue to grow strong. The act of calling strangers as friends is a big thing for me cos I rarely extend my hand in the name of frenship and once I give u my hand,I would never let go. Even though, I am not always there for u, somehow I believe that my feelings would reach u.

Lastly, I would like to thank,u, MY READERS for giving me support and being kind enuff to read my ramblings of my Ups and Downs,my crazy moments,my sad moments and my happy ones.

Therefore let's greet 2011 with arms wide open and continue to spread Wisdom,Kindness and Love to others.

HAPPY XMAS

I have always thought of Christmas time, when it has come round, as a good time; a kind, forgiving, charitable time; the only time I know of, in the long calendar of the year, when men and women seem by one consent to open their shut-up hearts freely, and to think of people below them as if they really were fellow passengers to the grave, and not another race of creatures bound on other journeys. - Charles Dickens

Somehow, not only for Christmas,
But all the long year through,
The joy that you give to others,
Is the joy that comes back to you.
And the more you spend in blessing,
The poor and lonely and sad,
The more of your heart's possessing,
Returns to you glad. - John Greenleaf Whittier

Happy Xmas to my readers. May this year,u find what u want under the Xmas tree.

Lone ranger

I know I have blogged about this before (click here). Anyway,recent incidents that had happened in the past few weeks prompted a re-visit.

Being an individual who despises herd mentality isn't beneficial during Uni-life,ppl can say things about u and u won't notice it until somone tells u what's happening. Sumtimes even if u meant to say good things somehow ur words will be twisted,dissected and changed by few individuals who don't know u well.

For an instance, "I went to Pavilion with that girl's Bf" will become "I went to a hotel near Pavilion with that girl's Bf to have sex". Surprise? Don't be.. The herd takes account of ur level of relationship with that guy plus ur sexuality. I hate to say this over and over but my SEXUALITY does NOT dictate my PERSONALITY.

Why do I hate being in a herd so much when it does nothing but creates trouble for me. FYI,this is not the 1st time that ppl made me to be mad and depressed. Just face it, I have never like someone for what they are,always for who they are,never inspired to be in the limelight,always wishing to be a nobody.

So what solution do I have to solve this,the easiest of them all is to stop talking and stop them from entering my inner sanctum (yeah,my frenlist have shrunken again).

Sigh, I always thought that this kind of probs will only appear in the GAY World but its really funny that straight ppl and us have so much similarities.

Gay or straight

Before I start rambling, a special round of an applause to our brethren in the States,they finally got the DADT Act repealed as a Xmas present,finally joining the Army is fashionable. Let's work hard and make GAY MARRIAGE a reality.


Went to Damansara Perdana for the monthly dental trip. After getting torture by the dentist,I went to The Curve to get a huge dosage of Chinese Boy Eye-Candies. I finally noticed that The Curve is a popular place for the Gay Community. (Turn left,Macho Mary,turn right, Twinky Tina).

While waiting for the Sifu to come, I saw noticed that some straight guys dress up like gay ppl,low V neck collars,tight t-shirts and I think I saw an outline of a thong on a guy who is snogging his gf. (Bi perhaps).

I think its a trend for straight ppl dressing up/acting gay,perhaps they are desperate for attention. Some of them even use the terms like "nok" and "mak" in their conversations. Erm..perhaps,deep down,there is a little girl screaming to get out.

Maybe one of the Sifus could enlighten us on this subject?

Ps: yeah,I know that I'm so last century on the updates

Decisions

Many frens have said this and I have noticed that when it comes to decide on sumting, I take a long time to ponder. What do u expect from a guy who puts every topping that is available on his Subway Sandwich.

Why do I have to think so much about making a decision especially to Yes or No question. Maybe its due to me being cautious,not wanting the past to repeat itself. I love/want to be someone who could be spontaneous in nature. Some frens do get tired of my boring nature especially those who love to live on the edge. Surprisingly, those decisions that I took time to decide always be the right one to make. Eg: the break-up with Rizal. He is now happy with his Ex. (not me but the one before me)

So now its my time decide on my own happiness,shuld I stay single or settle down with one of the Cancer males?

I decided to enjoy my freedom a little while longer,this is the time for me to pave out my own path. There are things that I want to accomplish before I want to be a darling housewife. I put my trust on my ability to make the right decision,after all although Love may make the world spin, u can't buy food with it.

Sori Cupid,ur timing sucks.

Ps: Each decision/action I take is carefully thought of,some of it may hurt me,some may hurt the ppl that I care but in the end,it is the right thing to do.

Misinterpretation

Don't u just hate it when ppl missed interpret ur words, sumtimes u want to say good stuff,don't want to hurt their feelings directly or indirectly but somehow the words that the other person hears brings negative thoughts/meanings to them directly or indirectly. Then they start to sulk/avoid u.Then u start to wonder why they do that and when u realized that it was because of the words u said had hurt them and finally u felt double dosage of the pain due to u hurt their feelings indirectly and their silence treatment afterwards.

For example,the above happened in my Hemato class.Below is the scenario:

Girl A: Ms,we want to combine the one hour class with the 2 hour class,can anot?
Ms: Who disagrees with the idea?
Me: I. I have class after this ( a white lie)

After Class

Fren: where are u going?
Me: home

Girl A overheard the conversation.

Girl A: say got class?
Me: erm,sori but I really cannot tahan 3 hrs of Hemato. I guess I'm not smart like u guys.

Girl A walks away and joins her frens and talk with them in Tamil loudly. (Big mistake,I was a Sporean therefore I understand Mandarin and Tamil). The conclusion of their discussion was that I'm a selfish prick.

Today at lab

Me: Hi,can u pass me the plasticine.Tq
Girl A: donno where the plasticine is

In reality,the plasticine was near her and she used it right before me.

Me: (shakes head and took the plasticine)

Yeah,I know,its hard to comprehend that this happens at an Uni. :(

Serenity prayer

This is sumting that HELPS to deal with ppl that are mentally challenged.

Serenity Prayer

God, grant us the...
Serenity to accept things we cannot change
Courage to change the things we can, and the
Wisdom to know the difference
Patience for the things that take time
Appreciation for all that we have, and
Tolerance for those with different struggles
Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the
Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the

Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.

Short version of it

God, grant me the serenity

To accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Even shorter version of it

JUST SHUT UP AND DIE FROM CHOKING ON UR WORDS
U PIECE OF SHIT

Suicide = Stupidity

I guess that most of u would noticed that a famous (?) facebooker committed suicide due his fallout with his gf.Yeah,I'm talking about Alviss . I really don't know much about him (lengcais don't befren with normal people).

Anyway,as some of u know Suicide and me don't mixed well due to some past event in my life. For those who are new to my blog, there was someone in my circle of frens kill himself over someting that actually can be solved if he shared with others or others could try to be more sympathetic with him. Yeah,I still blame myself for not being there for him.

Every prob has a solution,no matter how big nor small it is. But seriously, attempting suicide should never be one of the solutions for the prob. I'm not saying that Suicide is a cowardly act,it does take a small amount of courage to walk over the ledge or to drink that bottle of poison. But if u have the courage and determination to take ur life,WHY don't u focus on improving ur life.

Don't EVER think that when u die,no one will be affected by it. Everyone would in some way be affected by ur death,ur frens,ur lovers and ur parents would blame themselves for not being there for u.If u kill urself over a lover,do u really think that the lover would be HAPPY? He/She would be scarred for life.

Think about it before u pull the trigger,is it worth the trouble?

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The butterfly is here again

Taking a risk can be fruitful and sumtimes the results can be satisfying. It seems that I have been meeting a lot of Cancer guys lately;Mr C,Mr T,Mr S,Mr Q.

All of them are really wonderful ppl. We sorta clicked during the 1st meet except for Mr Q,he is a boring fellow,keeps talking about politics every now and then. Anyway,I think I have found the perfect zodiac for me;he must be born under the Sign of the Crab. (talking cock here)

Out of the 3 guys that I enjoyed their company,only 2 are definitely keepers. One younger than me and the other is older,erm in fact he's is 10 yrs my senior.

I'm still deciding about where to go from here,both needs me to sacrifice sumting but isn't Love all about sacrificing sumting.

Ps: if the persons that I mentioned read this, don't worry much. Age,shape and size are not the important variables in my equation.

Never a fan of Society

Fren: Ichi,Can U follow the rules?
I : Got rules meh?
(blur face)

Many ppl that I know have always commented that I never do things following the proper SOP,that I cut corners or sumtimes invent a new way to do things. Seriously,I'm happy to do things my way and as long as they are completed and both parties are happy with the work,I lagi contented.

So if ur gonna ask me whether I'm going to obey the rules that Society has laid down. My answer is NO. The rules that are created by Society are dumb. For an instance, when a gay guy befrens a straight guy,Society would say that the gay guy is trying to seduce the straight guy or even worse the straight guy is labeled as a closeted gay guy. Another example,when a gay guy befrens a girl who has a bf,the Society deems that the gay guy only wants to break the couple apart in order to get the bf. See how,dumb Society is.The Society hates abnormalities; being gay is an abnormality,so is being rich,being poor and so forth.In simpler words, what The Society hates or can't comprehend,the Society rejects.

I have stopped thinking about what Society wants a long time ago. In my opinion,the Society would never be satisfied with whatever we do.So why bother to think about them when ur making decisions for ur own sake. Do u really think that Society will come and help when u fall? Even when ur on top,Society will try to topple u down.

Therefore in conclusion, Fuck Society and take control of ur life and if u fall, get up,wipe ur tears and blood and continue riding the roller coaster.

SHUT UP

Before I ranting,I have to say that I love to whine and bitch about things but I have never made bitching my full time occupation. Sori but I do have to let out some steam.

SHUT UP
Everything u wanna complain
This and that
I really don't understand why u complain
especially about the state of things
Raining complain, Hot sun complain

If u don't like
change
Go and stay in the Sahara,there is limited rain there
x suke
Go and stay in Washington,over there it rains almost everyday

U stress,U complain
Then u make everyone stress
cos of u

Ur a good person so be a good person
No one owes u anything and so do u

Like I said x suke,change
complaining all the time
won't make the prob go away

LASTADVICESHUTUP