We are Humans too

Whence spring these inclinations, rank and strong?

And harming no one, wherefore call them wrong?

Anonymous

I was watching Philadelphia when I realized that we had achieved a lot in creating awareness about Homosexuality. I still remembered about Stonewall riots and those brave ppl who dared to go against the Government to get equal rights for us.

But they left us without finishing their work,we inherited their dreams of making LBGT people having the same rights as Heteros,so that we can get married,have kids and be ourselves and not afraid of being persecuted or being labeled as crazy.

History had shown that people are afraid of the unknown,in the last millenia,activists had fought for Rights,Freedom and Equality. In this millenia,we are fighting for the same thing but for a different group of ppl.

LGBTs are not aliens,we are from the same species. Why are u so afraid of us? Denying us the chance of being happy and human. Why are u shunning us? Are we that powerful till u have to enforce laws for us,dictating how we shuld act?

Yes,I agree that with our presence,ur way of life is threatened. The norms of society are being questioned,after all who says that a man can't fall in love with a man or a woman can't fall in love with a man.

Or are u afraid that we might corrupt ur sons or daughters with our ways? Don't they have a right to decide?I pity those children who have to choose between their parents and their lives. Stop turning the other way or changing the subjects when we raise our issues,after all we did agree to hear your issues.

Sometimes I wonder why being gay is so wrong till parents could disown their own children. Are we that disgusting? U taught us that being honest is the best policy but when we are truthful,u start to curse us and recite divine curse or even call down the wrath of God,are we really demons?

My prayers are with those activists that are lobbying for equality among humans.,after all we are humans too.

Ps: click those links to know more.Tq

Let's laugh

It has been a stressful week with finals,due dates and what not. I'm still waiting for my day of freedom which is on the 2th June.

People been asking me what certain phrases or words actually mean. So I had compiled the list below.The actual meaning of those phrases are in italic.

What do these phrases or sentences actually mean:

1) That's my type of guy

That guy is going to get into my pants later.

2) Let's meet.

Let's fuck

3) I miss u.

I want to fuck u/be fucked by u desperately.

4) I love u.

Ur the best guy for me now,so let's get into a relationship.

5) Its over

I got a better guy than u,so goodbye.

6) I'll call u back.

If I have no other options,then I'll call u for a fuck.

7) Let's buy a sextoy.

I'm getting bored with ur sexual performance.

8) Let's do a threesome.

I need another cock but I still want yours.

9) We are moving too fast,can we take it slower.

I have another guy in my waiting list,buck up or ur yesterday's news.

10) He's not my type.

He's not going to fuck me,so why bother.

On Maintenance

Even after all this time

The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."
Look what happens with a Love like that!
—It lights the whole Sky. (Hafiz)

How do u maintain a relationship,it be love or bros or friends?For me,the best way to maintain a relationship is thru communication,tolerance and reminders

Let it be lovers,bros or frens,communication is important. You have make sure that the msg is sent clearly and the receiving party gets it. Its quite worthless to sulk or start a cold war,just becos ur unhappy with the way he folds the napkin. Fights don't actually kill a relationship,it lets you know how strong it is.You can't really sweep displeasures under the carpet. But don't fight over petty stuff like the proper way to fold a napkin or who's suppose to throw the rubbish or whose turn to pay the tab.

Its also important to have tolerance in the relationship. For example,ur partner loves smoking but you being a health freak can't stand it and gave him a ultimatum which is either he chooses ciggarettes or u. He would chose u of cos but still smoke behind ur back which in the end makes the ultimatum kinda useless. I would be contented if he tries to reduce the number of sticks per day,rather than forcing him to go cold turkey.

Lastly reminders,there are ppl who tink that anniversaries or even saying "I love you" is overated but actually when you remind them of your love,it will make them feel appreciated and sumtimes let u off with a warning although you did break their favourite china or misfeed their pets with the wrong meds.

The most important thing is that the both of u want to make the relationship work.Its kinda pointless to be only one that gives a thought on maintaining a relationship while the other party takes it for granted.

Angst Years

Its review time. During my teens,I was a super angry teen.I was unhappy about everything like school,family and even life. Yes,I did go through a short depression period. But I survived and became a smarter person.Ok,enuff about me.

During those years,I have a few favourite bands,boybands and singers

My favourite bands are:

1) All american rejects
2) Linkin park
3) Good charlotte
4) Simple plan
5) 3rd eye blind
6) Offspring
7) Pod
8) Green day
9)Papa Roach
10) Kiss
11) Rage against the machine
12) System of a down

Yes,they are all heavy to punk rock.I love their lyrics,they are realistic unlike Boybands which just focus on Love and Heartaches.Oh yeah,Their music is damm good,a few have good drummers,some have good gitarists and some have great mixers.

My favourite Boybands:

1) 911
2) Backstreet boys
3) Boyzone

Sori but Westlife and Nsync aren't my cup of tea. Mostly,I like them cos of their faces and voices.

My favourite singers:

1) Gloria Gaynor
2) Mariah Carey (only the 1st album)
3) Celine Dion


Christina and Britney didn't make it cos they were still searching for their niche in music scene,Madonna didn't make it cos I didn't know about her till 4 yrs ago and I hated pop and R and B till recently.

ps: Search the Mvs on Youtube. The bands that I mentioned have great MVs.

Pocketful of sunshine

Last nite,My family invited Al to dinner again,its seems to be a weekly event these days. We had Nasi Bukhairi.

After dinner,I joined Al and Novack for supper at Pak Li.( The crowd at Pak Li is being saturated with straight ppl,yucks). During the yamcha session,we were joined by 2 girls who are Al frens,One of them was my uni senior so naturally we started bitching about our lecturers while the rest sat down wondering what did the lecturers did to us.

The weird part about last nite was my comments were damm sluttish and quick and of cos a bit sarcastic. I really don't know how I got in that mood,its like I was a bit high. Even Al commented that he didn't see this part of me. I blamed the iced nescafe that I had. One thing I regretted was not going to clubbing,sure can pancing a few guys. The reason of not going was to let Al spend more time with his BF.

So we parted at around 1 am but since the nite is still young,I decided to go meet a chat buddy.I found him in one of the chatrooms and found him kinda cute and the best thing was his place is near my place. Fyi,sections 13,7,9 and 8 in Shah Alam are full of gays due to the large number of uni students living there.

I was kinda lucky cos he almost wanted to go out and his place was clear. So I went in to his room and had a chat when he took out some weed to consume.I was like stunned cos he looked like the nerdy type. He offered me some and I took a few blows.


Before I continue,I like to stress that I'm not a junkie or a smoker or a drinker but some times the inner demon comes out and thus impairing my judgement. Yes,I do get tempted but more then often,I would always try to keep my body clean from these poisons.

So after takin a few puffs,we proceeded to the bed. A fast description of the guy,He is 22 yrs old,165 cm,tanned,skinny and has a monster dick.


I was kinda surprised at the size of it cos of his height. As I was being a total slut,I went on with the program. It was kinda painful to take it all cos I have not been letting ppl topping me for a long but it truly was worth it.

I came home at around 3 plus,climbed into the bed with my jeans and went to Zland.

ps: Little prince,Drugs is off limit to you. :)

1 more week

1 more week left for this short sem,I'm so glad that its going to end soon. I just need to focus on finishing my assignments and studying for the finals.Then I got 2 weeks of break,then 2 more long sem,1 more short sem and then my practicals. After all that,I'm free to pursue other stuff. Maybe,I'll take the offer to go abroad to work or study. (Erm,this offer is still pending).

Lately,I felt so bored,lonely and unhappy,mainly due to family pressure,studies and personal but thanks to nightly yamcha sesssions,my spirits are soaring high.

There is one person that I miss so badly and want to meet up with but he is busy with work and all,can't blame him so much cos the timing to meet up sucks between the both of us, when I'm free,he's busy and vice versa.

But I really don't care about us not meeting up,since there are a lot of ways to keep contact and besides we living in the Age of Facebook,Hps and all. Its a bit frustrating when 1 side tries hard to spend a few mins to sms or to call or to poke but the replies took more than a hour to receive.Yeah,I know that he's busy so I can't hope for much rite? But there is a mly proverb," kalau nak,seribu daya. kalau tak nak,seribu dalih."

Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero

Tu ne quaesieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
Finem di dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
Temptaris numeros. Ut melius quidquid erit pati,
Seu pluris hiemes seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
Quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrrhenum: sapias, vina liques, et spatio brevi
Spem longam reseces. Dum loquimur, fugerit invida
Aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero.

I'm sick of thinking about the future and who might be with me or who might leave me.A lot of my frens are seasonal friends and too few frens are true frens. Ppl always come into my life,some were invited and some were not. Some had made promises to be together always and some had broke their forever pact.

Each person left their own marks in my life canvas,some were good while some were bad.

The bad experiences made me stronger,made my walls thicker and made my shields better. Right now,I'm lost,especially in the love department. Too many bad experiences,too many times,my heart broke and mend.

Don't believe me,check this list:

1) Ex no 1 moved to Canada
2) Ex no 2 used me as pit stop
3) Ex no 3 thought we're fuck buddies
4) Ex no 4 wanted an open relationship
5) Ex no 5 was a 2 timing bastard

And now since I had talked to Baby,I found out that he just wanted exp.

Yes,I agree that I'm a fool in love but if someone showered u with a lot of love and said stuff that really put u in 7th heaven,wouldn't you fall in love?

My frens said that I need to improve on heart control and they said that sometimes I'm the problem,being to clingy and all.They also said that there were instances that I was creating barriers to shield myself,scared of committing and just being a fussy.E.g Man.

I'm totally lost now,ppl who were close became strangers and ppl who were strangers became close. My blog is my shelter from the world,a place that I can be me,my place of solitude but now ppl are coming to me and quoting stuff from my blog,asking things that I share with no one.Sigh,maybe I shuld just close this blog and blog some where else.

The readers would alredi know that there are a lot of faces and persona that Ichi could be,from a horny bastard to an intellectual professor. To the people in reality,I'm really don't show my true self cos of number of things,if I were to state here,you'll label me as a snob. So I always portray myself as a idiotic,blur and don't care persona. This actually conserves my energy and expand my tolerance factor. See I told you that I'm a snob.

Yes,I know that I tend to write emo stuff here cos I can't write Happiness,unlike Little prince, Happiness simply oozes out from his blog. I have through a lot that I realised that Happiness is unreal,happily ever after never comes.

Screw the Future,Love and Happiness,I'm only interested in living my life and in the present.

A day in Ichi's life

Many were curious at how I spend my time despite having a tough degree and all. Well,this is what I normally do.

On Weekdays

I would be busy with classes and labs mostly in the mornings and sometimes in the afternoons. So I'll be home at around 4 the latest. I had a short nap,then will do a bit of studying.

In the evenings,if there is a yamcha session,I'll go out or I'll just be in front of my com,updating all of profiles and blog.

My bedtime is around 2-3 am.

On Weekends

Normally,I would go out with my frens or Bro to Kl to watch a movie or what.If I don't go out,I would spend time watching all the downloaded movies or series.

I don't study on weekends unless if there is a quiz or exam on the following week.I would spend time cleaning my car,room or tank and updating myself with the current updates in the Health field or just plain research on anyting that interest me.

At nite,I'll go out if the yamcha crowd is interesting enuff,normally Al will be my driver and partner for these yamcha sessions.

My bedtime is around 4-5 am

ps: i know my life is a bit boring but as long as I have time doing things that I like,I'm happy.
pps: These is the stuff that I always do daily,there some other additional stuff that I do.

Last weekend

I had a good weekend despite of what had happened. No use of crying my heart out for a stupid boy rite?

On Friday

I cleaned the fish tank and my room. I realized that I need to get more books as the old ones are getting a bit dull to read. So I decided to throw almost 3/4 of my book collection except for Hp series,Ryan series,Eragon series and Septimus Heap series.So finally my book shelves will be able to breathe.

At nite, Al,Fairus and I went to have yamcha and we found out that there is a new cafe just opened and everything was free,it seems that the owner wanted to test the market.

The location of the cafe is in front of Acapella condo (section 13,Shah Alam). Its consep is like Tupai in Kl,sorta a cafe in the park. The owner who was a beautiful lady told us that it will be full operational by the end of June and there will be a lot of stalls.

Overall judgement: The food was nice especially the satay,the drinks were mediocre,they used marigold orange juice instead of fresh juice. So I'm giving 3 stars.

Then at 2 am,Al and I went out to Ronda2 Kl cos both were bored. We went to have supper at Kak Ara (the shop is in front of Blue Boy,Bukit Bintang).The shop owner is really out of this world,those who had been there will know what I talking about.

Then Al made me to follow him to Blue Boy.It was my 1st time going into Bb,I think I prefer LQ. The show was nice but the music was not that good,well Bb is after all a Meat Market.

At 3,we went to Tasek Permaisuri which is located in fromt of UKM. We were just lepakking there waiting for the rest of the clan to arrive,saw a few cuties but no mood to pursue. We went back at around 4.30 am,without meeting anyone we know,maybe they were busy somewhere else.

On Saturday

My dad invited Fairus and Al for dinner,I wanted to invite Little Prince but he was busy with someone,didn't want to disturb. So we had chicken ala island cooking which was a bit dry for me.

We had a good dinner conversation,it was mainly between Al and My dad,the rest were just being extras.

At 11 am,I went to pak li with Al and Novak. It seems that the gay crowd in pak li is dimishing and the straights are taking over or maybe there is a new cafe around.

Heartbroken

I thought You were true but You are just like the rest,looking for a guy to be Your prey.I had given all to You,my time,energy and love.

I was stupid to trust You.I thought You were sweet and angelic but it seems that I was wrong.You told me that You were sad over your grandma's death but I think You had found someone to comfort you but he's not me.

Thanks for proving that I always look for love at the wrong places. I thank God that He opened my eyes before I propose. I shuld had just ignored ur chat and invites. Don't bother to call me again,don't bother to read my blog,stay out of my life.

Thanks for the lessons given,My sweet Devil.

The seeker of truth

Enlightenment is man's release from his self-incurred tutelage. Tutelage is the incapacity to use one's own understanding without the guidance of another. Such tutelage is self-imposed if its cause is not lack of intelligence but rather a lack of determination and courage to use one's intelligence without being guided by another.
Immanuel Kant

Lately,I had been saying a few things that made a few people's brain to reboot automatically but I felt that I had to share it with the readers or to get new input on the stuff that I had discovered.

The Road of Self-Enlightenment is a lonely journey that a few partake. There are 2 ways to achieve enlightenment which are by religious or by secular means. Each has its own pains. For me,I believe that by discovering the truth of things,we'll get to know ourselves better thus gaining enlightenment.

So how do I get the truth of things? Mainly by gaining more knowledge,almost everything in this world interest me,let it be mundane stuff like why the sky is blue or important stuff like why humans are being created. Gaining knowledge isn't just having all the info stored in ur head and able to remember it word by word,its actually to be able to practice the stuff u know in daily life.

To me,knowledge is everything. To be about to know about things bring me great pleasure. Yes,I know some might think that learning is troublesome and unimportant and it really doesn't contribute to Self-Awareness or to be a better person. But how u want to improve or find urself if u don't learn?

There's a saying that goes," To seek the truth is to gain freedom." Spare the saying a thought and tell me what you think of this post.

The Hidden Hand

Some historians had noted that certain events had been orchestrated to profit certain parties.True,most of the conspiracy theories were never proven right but they were also never proven wrong.

The biggest of all conspiracy theories is the Holy Grail. The grail had been mentioned throughout history and many had sought to find it.Its believed that only one group had found it which the Priory of Sion or better known as the Knights Templar. What is the Holy Grail actually? A cup or platter or a secret so great that could shake the foundations of a Religion?

The Knights Templar were a poor order but in a fortnight,they became a powerful player in the politics of Europe till an order had given by a King and supported by a Pope destroyed the Knights Templar.

There are many other conspiracy theories like Illuminati sought to create a new world order by orchestrating Revolutions in certain countries or the Freemasons who created America in their image or Israel which was created by the Zionist.

The royal Families of Europe had cases of Hemophilia except One who was the cause of the mutation. Is it really a coincidence or otherwise?

If u read history carefully,U'll see a lot of events similar to what I had mentioned,some events are so strange that they can't occur naturally or the actors had support from certain parties.

The Hidden Hand is always watching and managing the flow of events.Who are the members of The Hidden Hand and what are they really trying to cover or to achieve? No one could say for sure.

Seek the Truth and you will be free

BONDS

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be, your neighbor, your coworker, a long lost friend, or a complete stranger. When you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way. Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved,straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets. Most importantly if you Love someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.

Omega point

"The more complex a being is, so our Scale of Complexity tells us, the more it is centered upon itself and therefore the more aware does it become. In other words, the higher the degree of complexity in a living creature, the higher its consciousness; and vice versa. The two properties vary in parallel and simultaneously. If we depict them in diagrammatic form, they are equivalent and interchangeable." --Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, The Future of Man, p.111

I had this interesting talk with frens during supper just now. Its about limits.The main question was," Is there a limit or its limitless?"

This question reminded me of Omega point theory by the Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, he states that Omega point is the maximum limit of complexity and consciousness that can be achieved by a being or thing.

Examples of Omega point:

1) If u stretch a rubber band,it can only expand so much then it will contract.

2) The expansion of the Universe is actually limited by the space and mass it holds,meaning after the Universe reached a certain point,it will start to contract and thus creating chaos in the order of things.

3) Evolution is also being limited by this theory. U can expand the gene pool by doing mix breeding but after a certain period of time,the gene pool will begin to shrink and cases of in-breeding will rise.

Ok,lets incorporate this Omega Theory in life,k.As u may recall the phase," There is no limit to what you can achieve." Realistically, Everyone has a limit in every aspect. A person can just endure a certain percentage of abuse or a certain limit of success before they fall. For example,the Greek and Roman heroes had limits to their power,Achilles had the Achilles heel while Alexander the Great could only expand his domain to a certain area and suffered from mutinies and disgrace.Even I have limits to what I can do.

So what actually Limits us from achieving? Well,its our needs. Ppl in marketing shuld know about Maslow's hierarchy of needs. According to Maslow, Needs is divide into 5 categories which are Physiological,Safety,Love,Esteem and Self-actualization. More on Needs,click here.

For example, a vagabond wouldn't have time to think of the hidden secrets of the universe as he needs to survive. His Needs limit his thoughts to just focus on survival. Another example,Thinkers or Scholars of the olden days are rich,they are rich enuff to be able to sit and think of theories to explain their philosophies of life. You may argue that some thinkers or even writers were poor but if you examine their works,they are limited to their social standing or norms.

The best example of Limits in the way that ppl think is before the 17th century,Everyone thought the Earth is the center of the universe,everything else were revolving around it including the Sun.Its only after the invention of telescopes that ppl were convinced that the Sun is actually the center of the universe. By the year 2000, the scientists actually discovered that the Sun is just the center of our galaxy and its actually a star.

There are many other examples of Omega points or Limits in our daily life.

It is said that Humans who had reached their Omega point will be able to become one with God or to able to comprehend the mysteries of the Universe.Just imagine the power of humans who had transcended. Or u could just use Omega Point theory to explain why u can't get an A to ur parents.


Ps: More about Omega Point,pls click here.

The beast is tamed

Finally,I had finished doing my mid-sem exams and got 4 uni-free days since the lecturers are busy with workshop and whatever. The mid-sems were ok, a lot of KBKK questions. (I hate when I'm being forced to think).

It has been 6 days since I and Baby had met,6 days without honey dipped spring cock,simply to say that it has been 6 days since I had cummed.

After the exam,I rushed to Baby's house and there he was waiting for me at his porch,truly I had never seen a nicer picture,he was sitting at the steps of his house,waiting for me.My 1st reaction is to rip his clothes and fuck him there and then but unfortunately,We're in Msia,Sigh.

After entering his house,I gave him a kiss so intense that Eros blushed.I carried him to the sofa and start to eat him alive,every part,every inch of his body I devoured. As I start to rip his shirt and pants off,he said," Abg,can u wait for a bit longer,Baby want to change my clothes."

After 10 mins,he called me up to his room and voila,he was in his school uniform. So my little angel is being a devil,I thought to myself.

"Abg,Baby have been so naughty lately," he said with an angelic face. " Ic,so Abg has to punish Baby rite,well lay on my laps," I said. As he lay on my lap,I began to spank him gently at 1st and then with each spank, I increased the strength. Suddenly,I felt something moist at my groin area and it seems that Baby had cummed. The beast within me was yearning to come out and be pleasured.

I pulled him on me and start to rip his clothes off and engulf his sausage,he was just moaning with passion. As my lips travel south,stopping at his luscious dick,I began to polish it with my tongue.Oh,what savage beast we had turned into. His moans empowered me to invade his love tunnel.In between gasps,he asked me to penetrate him,giving him all and without mercy.

As I watch his eyes,I began to enter slowly,His eyes closed preparing for the worst. Being a beast,I paused and tricking him to a false of security and when he opened his eyes,I pushed all in,the fear I saw in his eyes pushed me to greater heights,slowly my momentum increased,he match my movements with his. For an while,the room was silent,filled only with our love sounds........

With a final beastly moan,we cummed in unison.

Finally,the beast is tamed,the fire of lust is extinguished .

Prostate

Ok,guys, I know that u all realized that the guy's G-spot is actually a prostate gland. But how many of u really know its true function and its anatomy?

A healthy prostate is slightly larger than a walnut. It surrounds the urethra just below the urinary bladder and can be felt during a rectal exam.The prostate is sheathed in the muscles of the pelvic floor which contract during the ejaculatory process.

The main function of the prostate is to store and secrete a slightly alkaline fluid, milky or white in appearance that usually constitutes 25-30% of the volume of cum. The alkalinity of semen helps neutralize the acidity of the vaginal tract prolonging the lifespan of sperm. The alkalinization of semen is primarily accomplished through secretion from the seminal vesicles. The prostatic fluid is expelled in the first ejaculate fractions together with most of the spermatozoa. In comparison with the few spermatozoa expelled together with mainly seminal vesicular fluid those expelled in prostatic fluid have better motility longer survival and better protection of the genetic material (DNA).The prostate also contains some smooth muscles that help expel cum.

Anatomical picture of the Male Urinary system

Anatomical picture of the Prostate gland

Since we know its function and anatomy,we can now discuss the diseases that involve the prostate gland. I'm going to highlight 3 diseases here.

Prostatitis

Prostatitis is an inflammation of the prostate gland ( anything that ends with itis means inflammation).

If you have prostatitis, you may have a burning feeling when you urinate or you may have to urinate more often or you may have a fever or just feel tired.

Inflammation in any part of the body is usually a sign that the body is fighting germs or repairing an injury. Some kinds of prostatitis are caused by bacteria tiny organisms that can cause infection or disease. If you have bacterial prostatitis, your doctor can look through a microscope and find bacteria in a sample of your urine. Your doctor can then give you an antibiotic.

Most of the time, doctors don’t find any bacteria in men with prostatitis. If you have urinary problems, the doctor will look for other possible causes, such as a kidney stone or cancer.If no other causes are found, the doctor may decide you have a condition called nonbacterial prostatitis.

You may have to work with your doctor to find a treatment that’s right for you. Changing your diet or taking warm baths may help. Your doctor may give you a medicine called an alpha-blocker to relax the muscle tissue in the prostate. No single solution works for everyone with this condition.

Most of the time, doctors don’t find any bacteria in men with prostatitis. If you have urinary problems, the doctor will look for other possible causes such as a kidney stone or cancer.

Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia

I know its a big phrase to understand or say but let's make things simpler,k. Benign means its non-cancerous tissue,Hyperplasia is uncontrol increase of cell tissues.

So it refers to the increase in size of the prostate in middle-aged and elderly men.When sufficiently large, the nodules compress the urethal canal to cause partial or sometimes virtually complete obstruction of the urethra which interferes the normal flow of urine.

If u have one or more of the symptoms below,seek medical help.

• A frequent and urgent need to urinate. You may get up several times a night to go to the bathroom.Frequent urination at night may be a sign of an enlarged prostate.

• Trouble starting a urine stream. Even though you feel you have to rush to get to the bathroom, you find it hard to start urinating.
• A weak stream of urine
• A small amount of urine each time you go
• The feeling that you still have to go, even when you have just finished urinating
• Leaking or dribbling urine
• Small amounts of blood in your urine

If u have this maliaise,don't worry,its not cancer but it has the symptoms as prostate cancer.

For more details on this disease,click here.

A case of Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia

Prostatic cancer

Prostate cancer is a disease in which cancer develops in the prostate.It occurs when cells of the prostate mutate and begin to multiply uncontrollably. These cells may metastasize from the prostate to other parts of the body.
The age and underlying health of the man, the extent of metastasis, appearance under the microscope, and response of the cancer to initial treatment are important in determining the outcome of the disease.

The symptoms for this disease is the same as Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia. Advanced prostate cancer can spread to other parts of the body. The most common symptom is bone pain often in the spine, pelvis or ribs. Spread of cancer into other bones such as the femur is usually to the proximal part of the bone. Prostate cancer in the spine can also compress the spinal cord causing leg weakness and urinary and fecal incontinence.

The causes of this cancer are diet,genetic and lifestyle.

The prevention of this cancer are:

1) Minerals and Vitamins such as Selenium,Vitamin A and D and Phytoestrogen.

2) Green tea

3) Omega 3

Ps: THIS POST IS JUST FOR SHARING INFORMATION ABOUT DISEASES.PLEASE SEEK MEDICAL HELP OR MEDICAL ADVISE FROM YOUR UROLOGIST. THE AUTHOR OF THIS BLOG DOESN'T TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS.

I'm the man

Finally completed solving the Rubik's cube that Little prince gave.

White side

Yellow side

Orange side


Blue side

Green side

Red side

ps: sori,the lighting wasn't that good for some pics.

PISSED

I have been keeping a few problems from anyone especially Little prince and baby.Its not that I don't want to share but the problem is made of little problems,some are so trivial that u might think that its stupid to mention.

The list of problems:

1) The language used in my blog

I got a few emails that mention the language I used. I use English cos its easier for me to type and think at the same time. If u want the reason why I used English,Its mainly cos I'm from an English speaking family and school. I'll look stupid if I blog in Malay.Yes,I know that I'm Malay but seriously my Malay is rojak.

2) The contents of my blog

Erm,again I got ppl saying that Ichi's blog is a fantasy story. Yes,I agree that I'm living in a fantasy rite now,having Baby and all but if u know my past,u'll think that its a fantasy too. Many things had happened in my life,some things I really don't like to share to the public. But those ppl who really know me will tell u that this blog is 99.9% true.

3) Saga of Golden Dildos

I know I haven't been blogging about it for a long time but there are sumtings that I want to share about which its more important than the saga.

4) Uni

Ok,as all of u know,I really hate this short sem as its short but the subjects are kinda heavy and I'm in a different group which has a lot of ppl that I don't know or are mainly juniors who are still having illusions about the awesomeness of this course. So I would just go to class and go back,I don't lepak or if I do,it will be with ppl outside of uni life or some good uni pals.

Another Uni topic,Some of the Non-foundation mates got to know about a rumour about me trying to steal a fren's bf, erm,I don't want to blog about it as I regard it as a closed case,if u want to know,msg me or call me or see me in private,I'll tell u my side of the story.

On regarding on giving notes,Its not that I'm lazy to email the notes to uolls but sometimes I'll forget to do it as I rarely check my official email.

On regarding me being gay,I know some of u are saying that Ichi is just looking for attention by saying he's gay but the truth is I don't want to be gay,I wish that I'm normal,got Gfs and all. Do U really think that a person wants to be gay?

Again on lepakking,I seldom lepak with uolls cos of Baby or spending time with my VIPS,the time we have is quite limited,minus the fucking session,we have only like 1-2 hours to talk or whatever and the other fact is Uolls just expect me to go out with u but when I want to call u for yamcha,u start to say that ur busy with course work or whatever. Its kinda sad that u kept rejecting my invites but I need to accept ur invites. How about those secret get together sessions that I found out about,U know that I had sumting important planned on last weekend but U rejected it for sumting trivial. Thank god,I found out who are my true frens and frenenemies.

Sigh,I can go on about how pissed I am but I rather waste my energy on sumting else. I really can't stand ur collective attitudes,each person keep pissing me off each day. Maybe I shuld release the bitch in me.

Dear mum

Mum,I had spent 3 hours doing this post for u,just for u but it seems that I can't find the words to describe u or to praise u.

Mum,I know I'm no longer the son that U wanted but I love u always. Maybe with the song below and the Celine Dion's song in my playlist could describe what I feel about u.

Abg,I'm still sick

Today,Baby is supposed to go to school since he's just suffering from common flu and is almost well but being a super manja boy,he skipped school and asked me to go to his house early morning,luckily,I'm alredi awake and studying for the quiz that I supposed to take yesterday.

So I went to his house and ate some sandwiches that he had prepared. He told me that he haven't take a bath and wants me to bathe him again. So when I was soaping him,I spotted a few rashes on his back and chest. The skin was reddish and I felt that there were small bumps on the area. After drying him with towel and I inspect the area closely and asked a few questions. The diagnosis was rashes. Unfortunately,I didn't have the time to go and rush him to a clinic as I need to collect my exam slip and what not.

At 1 pm,I brought him to the clinic and the doctor gave some meds and 1 week of medical leave.As I drove him back home,we had a stupid and pointless talk. Below is a part of the talk:

Ichi: I
Baby: B

B: Abg,sorry.

I: Why?

B: I'm sorry that I have been a burden to u. I have been adding to ur probs lately. Sorry,abg,cos of me,u didn't have time to study for ur quiz.
(cries in the car)

I: Baby,if I thought that ur burden,I would have left u a long time ago.
(hold his hand)

B:Abg,I know u love me a lot but I think that I don't deserve this treatment. Ur too good to me.

I: Erm,what are u trying to say?
(preparing for the worst)

B: Abg,Baby can't take care of u like how you took care of me. You treated me so well,baby scared that baby would hurt u in the future.

I: Baby,if ur trying to break,just say lah.
(removes hand)

B: No lah,Abg. Baby isn't going to leave u.Its just that Baby can't do all the things that Abg did for me.

I: Baby,if u cook for Abg everyday. I'm happy enuff.
(stops the car and hugs Baby)

B: ok,ok. Today menu is spring cock dipped with honey. Sedap tak,abg?
(caresses Little Ichi slowly)

I: Baby,Let's get u well 1st,k?

End of conversation

After sending Baby home,I rushed to my uni and read a bit of notes and got tips from a fren. The questions were ok but I forgot a few basic stuff like the symptoms of Malaria or what diseases do Anopheles spread or type of insect lays eggs singly on water.

After quiz,I rushed back to Baby's house and slept while hugging him till around 6 plus. Lucky that I woke up by that time cos as I walk to my car,his mom arrived.(I always parked the car a few units away so that the neighbours wouldn't suspect anything.)

Abg,I'm having a fever.

Last nite,I had a chat with Baby.It was mostly about me getting braces,Baby was saying that my teeth is good enuff for him but I felt inferior with my set of teeth,its not like the Colgate's model's teeth,I want my teeth to look normal and the most important thing is I want to look good. I know deep down getting a braces is a psychological thing,I feel that by getting it,I'll be better inside. Weird explanation rite?

Then this morning,I woke at 8 am cos of 2 things:

1) to wish Little Prince gd luck for his exam
2) to study for my quiz later

At 8.20 am,I got a call from Baby which was weird as he is in sch till 1 pm.It turned out that Baby was having a fever,he hid that fact damm well last nite. He knows that if he told me about his medical condition,I would start worrying and at least drag him to the clinic on the spot. So that's what I did this morning,I went to his house,gave him a shower and drag his butt to my family doctor. The diagnosis was common flu and sore throat plus cough. Then,I went to the kopitiam and get him Bubur Ayam.He's now sleeping on his bed.

Oh yeah,I did gave him a lecture on not telling me about his condition. I mean its pointless of someone to be in a relationship when you don't share your pains,rite. His reply really broke my heart,he said," Abg,I don't want to make u worry so much since u had a lot on ur plate lately.I know you care about me and u'll do anything for me but I want u to be happy so that's why I didn't tell u about it. Sorry,abg."I told him that I know that he loves me but I don't want him to be selfish. If anyting happened to him or those who I love and the problem could be solved by me instead of it escalating into sumting worst,I couldn't forgive myself. We ended up hugging each other till he slept.

I know that I'm being weird,worrying others and neglecting myself in the process but that's how I am. I believe that in any relationship let it be just a fren-fren,bro-bro or bf-bf relationship, Pains and Joy are meant to be shared if you can't share them,its better to get a robot.

Ok,enuff of me blogging,I need to continue studying.

Love
Ichi

30 April-2 May 09

Finally,I got time to blog about about my bday. This year the celebration were kinda low key,didn't go all out cos of some misunderstanding with a gd fren but still I had a great time.

30 April

I went out shopping with my dad,bought a few t-shirts and jeans which I'm going wear for going class and uni events in the afternoon.

Then at 8 pm,my dad told to get ready cos we're going to dentist. At first,I thought that the visit is for my dad cos he had been complaining about his toothache but it turns out to be for me.He wants me to get braces for my teeth and he's paying for it. Thank god,if not I have to wait for another 2 yrs to save up for the braces or I have to hunt for a sugardaddy.

The doctor's main practice is near the Curve so I'll be going there once a month for check ups in the morning. Oh well,at least its free.

My Teeth and the horse teeth are similiar

1st May

At 12 am,I got a 5 bday msgs from Baby,my frens,Little prince and Nase. Then after 2 am,I got a bday wish from my frens and relatives on an hourly interval.

At 10 am,Baby woke me up and he asked me to go to his house. I got a dozen cupcakes and a good fuck from Baby.That was the 1st time that Baby fucked me. It was so good to have a cock in my ass after so long. About the cupcakes,he baked himself and decocrated it. He wanted to make 2 dozen of it but he overslept and didn't have enuff time to bake it.

At 3 pm,I went back and had lunch with my family which included my Aunt from Ampang and my Uncle from Shah Alam.The rest of the clan didn't make it but there would be a clan meeting at the end of the month.

The favourite line of the day was," Ichi,why are u still single? Don't want to get married ah?Later,all the good girls would alredy be married. My reply was,"Aunty,this is your fault. I asked you to find a girl but you haven't pass me her number."Nice dodge I think.

At nite,we went for a dinner at (Plaza Alam Sentral) P.A.S. Nothing much happened cos it was just me,my parents and siblings.

2nd May

I went out with Little Prince and Fairus.The original plan was to have a dinner and clubbing in the evening but since there was AIM and some of the guests were busy so I decided to cancel it and went for a movie and hang out at Times Square.

Little prince was sweet cos he watched Xmen: The Origins for a second time with me. The movie was good and at last I got to see Gambit in action even though its for 10 mins. I always had liked Gambit.

Before the movie,we went for lunch at Kenny Rogers.The outlet at Times Square scored a low grade in service,they were so slow in taking orders and Fairus's 3rd side dish had to be changed.

After the movie,We tried Krispy Kreme at Times Square but the doughnuts were super sweet.I still prefer Jco and Big Apple. We also had Starbucks. We left at around 6 pm cos Little Prince and Fairus want to go and see their beloved ones.




So in conclusion,I still had a great time celebrating my bday although it wasn't what I planned originally. After all,its not about the grandeur of the celebration.

Little Prince gift: A Rubik's Cube

7 ghosts

AS GOD AS MY WITNESS,

I PROMISED YOU THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN, I'LL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU AND BE BY YOUR SIDE.

07 Ghosts is about a slave boy who discovered that he is a prince from a fallen kingdom and has a power that everyone wants to control. Would the promise between two friends withstand the test of time and destiny?

The plot:

Teito Klein is a former slave sent to attend the Barsburg Empire's military academy due to his ability to use Zaiphon, a type of supernatural power. The ability is rare, and thus highly prized. Teito is an amnesiac and doesn't remember anything of his origins—what he does learn of his past comes from his recurring and often traumatizing dreams.

After a year at the academy, Teito takes the graduation exam; it is notoriously difficult, with a pass rate of one in twenty-five. Teito and his best (and only) friend, Mikage, pass easily. That night, in their shared dorm room, they each promise to help the other at any cost. The next day, Teito is delivering papers to a professor when he overhears his name. He stops to listen and realizes that the speaker, a man named Ayanami, is the man who killed his father in his dreams. Teito is found eavesdropping and tries to attack his father's murderer, but is quickly brought down by one of Ayanami's subordinates and sent to prison. Mikage comes to help him escape, only to find that Teito has managed to fight past the guards by himself. The two flee the building, but are cornered on a balcony. Teito pretends to hold Mikage hostage, threatening to kill him; and tries to escape when Ayanami sends a Zaiphon attack after him, which Teito manages to partly deflect. A Bishop in the nearby 7th District brings the injured Teito to the church to recuperate. Since Teito is still in chains, the Bishop, Frau, mistakes him for a slave and comments that if Teito had been a soldier in the Imperial army, he would have killed him immediately. Because of the law of "sanctuary", Teito may stay in the church without fear of the Empire or Ayanami.

Teito carries the Eye of Michael, the powerful artifact that his home country, the Raggs Kingdom, was ransacked for. The tragic death of a loved one catapults him into his quest for revenge against the Barsburg Empire and knowledge about his past while he becomes entangled with the Gods, Verloren, and the 7 Ghosts.

I wouldn't say more about the characters cos I just started watching this anime and I don't want to rely on the words of other critics.So I'll just talk about the important issues and items that is essential to understand the story.

This anime is basically about GHOSTS vs Verloren or good vs evil. GHOSTS try to protect humans and their Dreams while Verloren tries to taint the humans and their Dreams.

So what is so important about the Dreams?

According to legend,a human is asked to state 3 Dreams before the Chief of Heaven and before they are born into the world. After a human completed his 3 Dreams,he would die and go into Heaven and reincarnate. But if he fails to complete his 3 Dreams and he dies,he will be forever trapped and forced to serve Verloren. However when a human is born,he'll forget what is his 3 Dreams are and need to find it on his own.This search for the 3 Dreams is suppose to be the joys of life.

Its a nice anime and there are a lot of guys in the anime,right now the anime is classified under the shoujo category.

To know more about the anime,download it at Dattebayo.com.

I'm 24

Wow,Time does go by fast.I'm 24 yrs old alredi. Still young rite unlike Uncle Willy,Uncle Nase,Uncle Anton and of course Papa Twinkle. Hahaha.

I had spent the last hour in front of a mirror,so far I found that every part of my limbs are still functional and still tight. :)

This year,I foresee many good things going to occur and I need to buck up cos I have many ppl to care and protect.

Love
Ichi