27 mins more.............

Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and old lang syne ?

CHORUS:

For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !
and surely I’ll buy mine !
And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

We two have run about the slopes,

and picked the daisies fine ;

But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,

since auld lang syne.

We two have paddled in the stream,

from morning sun till dine^† ;

But seas between us broad have roared

since auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !

And give us a hand o’ thine !

And we’ll take a right good-will draught,

for auld lang syne.

I had said goodbye to the yr 2009 2 days ago and now I'm saying goodbye to the 1st decade of the new millennium.

Although,nothing much has changed in the world... Korea still divided,Pakistan and India still arguing and Isreal and Palestin still playing the game of tug......

I have changed a lot during this period of time. My anger level went down, my patience level went up... Came out of the closet... Finished Ns (a period when a guy becomes a gay.LOL)... My confidence level went up... have a better understanding of the world ( Don't fret if the world doesn't want to follow ur way.Ur ain't GOD).

All in all,this decade is the decade of self-discovery for me...

Ok2,enuff about me.Go and open those bottles of vodkas,open those packets of condoms and have a great year ahead.

Lovin Pharmacology

It takes a drug user to know how a drug function properly. Today,in class,I discovered 2 things;1)the students in my class are angels,2) Doing drugs do have a benefit.

Pharmacodyamics101

Dose: the amount needed to get high,it depends on the species: hetero or homo

Minimal dose: the minimal amount needed to achieve a certain stage of nirvana

Maximal dose: the peak response

Tolerance: This happens when u need a higher dose to achieve nirvana

Dependence: u can't function without it,for example SEX makes me a man.

Addiction: This happens when u start to offer ppl free sexs.

Synergism: 2 different drugs that enchances each other's effect.Eg: Weed and Ice or 2 tops

Antagonism: 2 different drugs that cancel each other's effects.Eg: Ice and cream or u stuck with a pussy and cock in the lift.

Competive enzymes: 2 gays going after a hot gay guy

Non-competive enzymes: 1 pussy and 1 gay going after a hot gay guy.U know who will get his ass in the end rite.

For those who are thinking of going into the life sciences field, not to fret,u'll become crazy too at some point.

I love my degree :)

Its that time of year again

In 72 hours (+\-),we'll say goodbye to 2009. Some had a good year,some had a bad year but all in all,2009 is going to be just a bittersweet memory.

I started blogging on the eve of 2009,although my blog isn't as popular as others or won any awards or have a large number of followers,I'm glad that I moved my blog from frenster to blogspot.

Tru this blog,I had the opportunity to meet and share ideas with 37 ppl,each is special in his/her own way. In this small spot of the cyberworld, we are connected by an invisible bond. We share each other's sadness,frustration,fear,happiness and dreams. Each of us are strangers but here our ideas and words bind us together...

Anyway,enuff of my ramblings.. for me,2009 is an emo yr,many things that happened kinda suffocated me but its nice to know that there ppl who encourage me to get over it and move on.

My highlights of year:

1) Got myself a younger bro after rejecting a lot of other requests.
2) Had a few relationships
3) Got into a major accident
4) Part ways with a fren
5) Successfully reduced my JEALOUSY meter to a controllable level
6) Was sick for 3 full mths
7) Got Chicken pox
8) Got another younger bro
9) On frenly terms with Dragonlady
10) Smoked weed and took Ice after a long time

Happy NEW YEAR and to my Blogger SISTAH,ROCK ON

Am leavin this place soon

As some of u know,I'm staying in Shah Alam,the city of orchids.

Want a piece of advice? Don't move here unless ur retiring. Its such a lame city,there is no cinema(Gasps),no gym(Gasps,Gasps) and no pub (faints).

Its a city for the old,the only entertainment that's available is bowling centers.There are 2-3 bowling centers in the whole of Shah Alam.

The bonus of staying here is:

1) No jams. Inter-city travel is hassle free.
2) There are many highways to getout from the city. LDP,NKVE,KESAS,Federal and the newest highway is the Bukit Kemuning Highway.
3) Plenty of roundabouts.
4)Plenty of Fresh meat due to UITM,UNISEL,PTPL and MSU located in very strategic areas.

5) During Holidays like Hari Raya or Xmas,the roads here turns into a racing circuit. (I'm serious).U can speed all u want. Last friday,I bypassed 8 traffic lights in a single journey and didn't had to brake. Ppl who like to drive fast like a certain Hyundai Matrix driver,pls do stay here.

The biggest downside of staying here is during long holidays or long weekends,all shops are closed or opened half-day so if u want to gt a simple thing like for an example,a ink cartridge (Canon B40 and C41 to be precise) u have to go to Subang Jaya.

So heed my advice,don't move here. Go to Kl or its satellite cities instead. As for me,I'm moving to Cheras (KL).

ps: Sorry,I'm just frustrated and trying to beat a dateline.

Honesty is so unrated

1)As I was working today,a tudung wearing makcik bought some stuff from my stall and paid me in 20 Rm 1 notes. As I put the money into the cashbox,she asked," dek,taknak kira duit tu ke?" My reply was," Maafnye, tp kalo makcik yg tertudung labuh pun saya kena berhati-hati,nampaknye,dunia nie nak kiamat dah." She just laughed and gave me rm 2 as a tip.

2) This incident happened 2 mths ago.

Ichi: Could u tell me how to go to this place?
Stranger: No,I don't know. (Holding her handbag tightly against her body)
Ichi: Sori Mdm,but ur handbag is just shouting "Petaling street".If it were prada,I might consider.

3) While I was waiting for KTM

Stranger: Elo,I'm so sori but I don't have enuff coins to buy the ticket via the machine and I need rm 1.Could u help?

Ichi: Sure.

Stranger: Could u gimme ur hp no? So I could pay u back.

Ichi: erm....... Sori but I think u better donate the extra to the needy.


Its funny to see the reaction of ppl while they judge ur intentions.

Is this guy for real? Wait,I think he wants sumting more?These are the few questions that u could literally see flashing thru their minds.

Its even sadder when frens doubt our sincerity in helping or our desperation in asking for help.

I wonder where are all the good Samaritans? Did we sumhow lose our sense of righteousness as our wallets get fatter?

SCORPIO

I had talked about certain qualities of certain zodiacs early but 2nite,I'll start focusing on each zodiacs individually and I do hope it helps you to understand the zodiacs better.I'm starting with Scorpio cos it seems that my life is full of them.

Scorpio's good traits

1)determined and forceful
2)Emotional and Intuitive
3)Powerful and passionate
4) Exciting and Magnetic

Scorpio's bad traits:

1) Jealousy and resentful
2) Compulsive and obsessive
3) Secretive and obstinate

Scorpio likes:

1) Truth
2) Hidden causes
3) Meaningful work
4) Being persuasive (Good bargainers)

Scorpio hates:

1) Taken advantage of
2) Being given only surface data
3) Demeaning jobs
4) Shallow relationships
5) Flattery and flattering

Scorpio is perfect with Cancer,Capricorn,Virgo and Pisces. The zodiac that a Scorpio shuld avoid the most is Taurus cos both are super jealous but they will have a good time in bed.

Although on the surface,they are calm and nice,underneath,they are quite the opposite. Picture a volcano,serene outside,hot magma inside. Don't be mistaken with their "don't care about the world" attitude, they do care about the world.

They are super sensitive but this is a double edge sword cos sumtimes they just flare up for nothing. They are also quite secretive so sumtimes,its hard to judge their actions and reactions and they hate being in the dark.

Scorpios have an enormous potential,they can do great good or great evil.They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous.

And finally,they are great in bed,not becos of being super horny but due to their own definition of love,to them,Love transcends all,spiritually,emotionally and physically. Although this is a good thing,sumtimes they tend to overdo it and can become sadists in love.

Oh yeah,never upset a Scorpio,their sting is deadly.

GAARA

I was talking to a hardcore kipassusahmati of Naruto when he told me that my personality is like Gaara. I was like wtf,I thought I was at least a leaf ninja(won't mention who,kalo sebut korg ingat aku syok sendiri). I asked him to justify his claim.Below is his reasons.

Why Ichi is Gaara:

1) Ichi hates to lose.
2) Ichi hates when someone doesn't return his favour
3) Ichi has tough father
4) Ichi is looking for LOVE,not the bf-bf type but sumone to support him
5) Ichi's temper is very sudden like the sandstorm
6) Ichi wants to buy "Ai" locket but can't find it
7) Although Ichi seems like a simpleton,he put barriers without knowing
8) Ichi's shell is his books ( He has a lot of books,don't know why he choose that course of his.Hidup TESl)
9) Ichi is always mistaken by others
10) Last reason,he doesn't know that there are ppl who really cares about him.

Oi,I asked u to state the reason not to promote.Baaka,Dessert Coffin Jutsu!

So how? Who agree with his statements? Am I Gaara or sumone else.

Who don't support me will not get a Bijuu.

Who support me will get a special jutsu.

ps: This is written by 2 ppl.

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens;
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens;
Brown paper packages tied up with strings;
These are a few of my favorite things.

Cream-colored ponies and crisp apple strudels;
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles;
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings;
These are a few of my favorite things.

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes;
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes;
Silver-white winters that melt into springs;
These are a few of my favorite things.

When the dog bites,
When the bee stings,
When I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favorite things,
And then I don't feel so bad.

lyrics of "My favorite things"

Its kinda amazing when sumting becomes ur favorite thing,the process of making sumting so ordinary like rain drops or a pillow or clip into a favorite thing doesn't take a day or two to be created but its weeks or yrs.

What is actually a favorite thing? Well, in its roughest definition,it is sumting we like the most,in a finer context,favorite things are things that we depend on,sumting like a safety cushion.

Humans hate vulnerability,they don't like things that they are scared of like darkness or unpredictable things or different things. This concept is also applied in contact with other humans,they just will shun the ppl who different from them. So they created the term "favorite",things that they can rely on when all everything else goes wrong.

My favorite thing is my bolster. Yes,I'm a bolster guy.Take my bolster away and I can't sleep at all unless u give me sumting else to cuddle with.

What's urs?

Updating my black book

It was been a while since I browsed my lil Black Book. Yes,like of of u out there,I do keep the numbers and urls of my scandals,fuck buddies and whatever in between.

Its kinda surprising that book is actually half full and the funny thing is most of them is concentrated in 3 cities which are Shah Alam,Subang and its related territories and Klang and some of them are linked either by dating or frenship with each other. It is indeed a small world. The 2nd sup rise is one of them is actually in my blog roll but we had never meet till now. Seriously,I'm the type that would take ppls' number online but don't have the guts to call them up for a sin session.

Anyway,back to my lil Black Book.. as I turned the pages,I made a few calls to get their latest updates..the status of a few guys which I stroked off or K.I.Ved are like below:

A= dating with C
A1: out of country
B= out of country
D= small dick
E= boring
F= loves boys ( maybe we shuld set up a club)
G= unreachable
H= can't say
I= married
K= public property
L= dated A and C
_: Hottie and not single

Its funny that after updating the book,I left with 4 numbers and only 1 is totally my type. (Count knows my type of guy well).

Maybe I shuld call him or the 3 others for a hot steamy Christmas celebration or I could just start a new book and see what surprise is in store for next year.

STB or BTS?

I have been hanging out with the working gays group. Sumhow after days of reading blogs of working gays here,I kinda figure out how they think and I like it. No more chatting about trivial stuff.

Anyway,we were talking about buying properties,either buying it STB or BTS. 1stly,STB stands for sell then build and BTS stands for build then sell.

Both methods have their own pros and cons.

STB

The developers would promo their projects before building it,usually they would build according to the number of buyers or have limited lots. This way is cheaper cos the area is still new,no much of a value. The downside is if the developer close shop,u'll have to tanggung the rugi and the area is kinda ulu so u have to pray hard that there are future plans to build the other infrastructures like schools and hospitals.

BTS

The houses are built 1st regardless of the support and its kinda expensive if compared to the method above but usually these type of projects have complete infrastructures. U also don't need to wait for the project to be completed to renovate them or whatever if u buy them this way,arinie beli,esok pindah.

So what's ur choice,BTS OR STB?

Why can't I feel the same?

I know that this post is so overdue.


The other day,I read Will's post about his late daddy,his feelings about his late dad made me wonder, would I feel the same? Would I shed tears of sadness or would I just move on,pushing the memories of my dad into a drawer and locked it up. Would I go to his grave and think of the happy memories that we had or would I go there and say," Look Dad,ur loser son is still alive and making tons of money,IN UR FACE."

I really don't know the answers to these questions that I had stated.

A few months back, I came across a blog titled "My Longkang" and after a few weeks,I deleted from my blog roll. The reason of deletion was due to envy.I was envious of their son-daddy relationship,it reminded me of the good times my dad and I had,those days where we spent the whole day fishing and talking. Those were the good times,now is pure hell,the both of us can't be in the same room,sooner or later,we'll argue,raise our voices to high pitch and walk off or slam the bedroom door.

My other siblings are the filial type but not me,I'm being labelled as "derhaka" or "Si tanggang",just becos I see things differently.I wonder if Si Tanggang is written 1o yrs back instead of 100 years back,would it have the same twist?

My fren once said that I'm lucky to have a dad at this age,to have a roof,to be able to spend money and eat good food,in a nutshell,to have everything that I need. But is that enuff? How about a pat on my shoulder once awhile or saying "I'm proud of u" or a simple hug? If I have one last day to live and one wish to that one last day perfect,I would wish that me and my dad to be able to go fishing.

If this is the cost of being rich,I want to be poor.At least,there will be no slamming of bedroom doors.

GREAT Working HABITS of GREAT PEOPLE

Get a dustbin and throw all those good working habits that the system had brainwashed u with. Let me re-educate u with great working habits that will help u to get ur own office and a cute secretary. 100% guaranteed.

1) Carry balls

Just agree to whatever the boss say,never say no or improvise even if the boss is clearly in the wrong. Always try to repeat the words of ur boss verbatim so that he knows that ur listening to him.

2) Be the fire stone

Dig whatever shit u can find about the other colleagues and tell it to ur boss. It doesn't matter if the shit is fly's shit,just tell it. Remember the other colleagues are not ur frens,they are also fighting for that top spot.

3) Take all the credit

There is a I in TEAM and those who say otherwise are stupid. Just take it all the glory.If he protests,say that u'll remember him when u get to the top spot.

4) Cover ur ass

Don't let anyone drag u down into his shit. Always remember that being fucked by 10 inch cock is painful enuff. Make sure that ur the diamond in the mud. Remember that u need to eat steak not maggie mee at the end of every mth.

5) Have a strong safety line to hold to

Be frens with the most powerful guy in the office so that ur untouchable and be prepared to jump ship once that guy is a liability.

With these 5 GREAT Working HABITS,I'm sure that ur going to get that office on the top floor within a year.

Disclaimer: Results may vary. The writer isn't responsible for the actions of the readers.

Fantastical Monday

I didn't get the Monday blues but I ended up with a sore throat and an aching body due to:





As some of u might notice,I have been posting shout-outs in Facebook stating that I'm going to Tambun with my uni-mates.Unlike the other programs that we did,this event is purely for fun and relaxation.

Lost World of Tambun is a nice place if ur going as a family. The rides and attractions there are worth ur money. There are a total of 7 rides,3 water rides and 4 land rides.Unfortunately,when we went there, 2 land rides were under maintenance.

My grup truly knows how to enjoy themselves to the max. We went to every corner of the theme park,explored every nook and cranny. Don't believe me,see the pics below.

Camwhoring in the bus

See how happy we are when we aren't studying

Waiting for the inevitable



Laughing while the rest are in terror.

My partner?

Crazy ppl posing while up in the air

Camwhoring reached new heights

Ps: A certain doctor would enjoy going there due to the large population of daddies.Wink2

Words

smile an ever lasting smile
a smile can bring you near to me
don’t ever let me find you gone
’cause that would bring a tear to me
this world has lost its glory
let’s start a brand new story
now my love
you think that I don’t even mean
a single word I say

it’s only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

talk in ever lasting words
and dedicate them all to me
and I will give you all my life
i’m here if you should call to me
you think that I don’t even mean
a single word I say

it’s only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

Words (Boyzone)

Remember Boyzone? I'm sure that those who are in their late 20s would know this fantastic band well.Anyway,I'm not going to talk about the band but about WORDS instead.

Do you ever realise that whatever u say/write gives an impact to readers/listeners? Sumtimes,we do blurt out dumb stuff or totally nonsensical stuff but sumtimes what we say can cut the hearts of others or make others soar to skies.

As for me,I do say stuff that are totally random stuff but when come to serious stuff like relationships and frenships,I really mean what I say,its just that the doing part takes a wee longer time to do it.

But there ppl who say stuff without thinking,without realizing how their words hurt others. Sumtimes,I do want to back to a time where a gentleman's words are worth a bag of gold and would die before taking back their word.

Sometime ago,I was so happy with the words of someone but the feeling has lessen,maybe the change is due to something that I said or done but if my fault isn't shown,how can I improve? I'm not a mind reader tau.

Thanks to my dad's restraints,I have done a lot of things and met with a lot of ppl from the stupid type to the psychotic type but there are some types of ppl that I would rather avoid meeting.

1) Snakes

I'm ok with foul-mouthed ppl as long as they are not butt-kissers.I think u guys know the type,these type of ppl would cuss and swear the person when the subject in question aren't around to hear them but once the subject is in front of them,their mouth is full of sweet stuff for the subject. I called these type of ppl snakes cos like a snake,their venom is often hidden.

If u want to cuss someone,do it in their face and be done with it.

2) Bodoh sombong

The crude translation of the phrase above is " Stupid and Arrogant" which is a bad concoction. If ur smart and arrogant,I'm fine with it cos u had worked hard to get there and u really deserve to be that.

An example of this type of ppl is a woman that I had unfortunately met and worked before.Her English is poor and there's an incident when she mistakenly said "underwear" instead of "on the way" to a client on the phone.After she hung up,I asked her whether the client wanted underwear and she looked at me one kind so I had to explain to her how I got that idea,she said,"nolah,saya ckp kat die yg kita nak dekat sampai.Kalo dlm bahasa Inggeris,tu kan dipanggil "underwear."

Shuld I say more..........

3) Ingrates

Someone once told me that if I want to do some good,do it without expecting a reward to avoid disappointments. His words are very true indeed,most ppl don't express their appreciation and some would bite a helping hand after achieving their goal.

To some extend,the words of a great leader is true. After all,gratitude is indeed a canine disease.

Run free or settle down?

Been reading a lot about gay issues like gay marriages etc this few weeks I have. Surprised I was to find that not all gays support the idea of gay marriage. Lets divide them into 2 team,we shall?

Team Happy Ever After:

Supports the idea of marriage cos equality and fairness from the state and society they want. Believe that marriage is sacred and its for all,not limited to the heteros they do. Believe in being faithful to single person,to love and cherish him till death part them both they do.

Team Mustangs:

Roam free they are,changing partners every night,tasting the different flavors that is on offer. Believe that Team H.E.A are copying the Heteros aka the Enemy they do. Why constrict urself to single guy when u can have the whole buffet. Besides men aren't meant to be caged,mustangs we are,roaming free.


So which team choose u?

Ps: been watching too much Star wars lately. May the Force be with u.

Pps: Wonder if the Jedi supports gay issue,I do?

Killjoy

I'm taking parasitology this sem so there's a lot of lab session where we need to examine feces of monkeys to spot some parasites like T.gondii or E.coli.

A thought came across my mind while I was having a lecture so I decided to do a impromptu survey on my gay frens. The survey sample was about 3o ppl,3 abstained. There were 2 questions asked:

1) Do you rim?
2) Do u know the dangers of rimming?

According to the data,10 have done rimming as least once,out of the 10,4 of them considered rimming as vital in sexs. 5 of them had been rimmed before. The rest said no to rimming. Surprisingly,only 2 are aware that rimming could be dangerous as some parasites could infect the victim thru oral-fecal route.

Personally, I did rim someone before but it was after cleaning the anus,the ass and the hole with soap 2-3 times. Really kesian the guy.

Anyway, what kind of diseases could be transmitted tru oral-fecal route?

The diseases are:

1) Hepatitis A
2) Hepatitis E
3) Toxoplasmosis
4) Amoebiasis
5) Shigellosis

And these just a few types of diseases that could be transmitted tru oral-fecal route. Disease no. 3-4 are parasitic in nature. If u wondering whether worms could be transmitted in the same way. The answer is YES.

If u want to find out more,go and wiki it or Google it.

Finally,a nice pic for u guys.....

A postmortem pic of a patient who suffered from SHIGELLOSIS

Ps: I'm just posting topics on healthcare for public awareness and not responsible if ur partner stops rimming u.

Pps: Rimming isn't limited to gays,u dumbass.

I love ZERO (Vampire Knight)

Housewive mode

My maid went back to Indonesia last night and will be coming back in 3 months. This means that I'm going be in-charge of the housework.

Being a housewife is okay in my book,its kinda therapeutic.During sec school,we don't have a maid cos my grandma was living with us but now she is back in JB,helping my aunt with her kid.Although,my grandma was staying with us,my mum would tell her not to do the housework,limiting my grandma to cook while she work.The rest of the chores are mine to handle.

The daily chores would be doing the laundry and sweeping and tidying the house while the weekly chores would be washing the toilet,moping and ironing.

My favorite detergent is Fabulso (lavender),1 cup of it and ur house would be smelling like a lavender garden. Seriously,I'm addicted to the Lavender scent. Somehow,it soothes me somehow.

Like all the other housewives,I do hate doing certain chores which are ironing,moping and folding the clothes. They take too much time to do. And I wouldn't do them in a cincai way especially ironing cos the lines in the pants and shirt has to be perfect,sumtimes ironing a single set of my school uniform takes me an hour.

I do hope my maid returns within 3 months or else I'll driving the family nuts with my cleaning habits.

I reject,I reject,I reject

For those who are in my facebook might notice that I had changed my profile pic into this:



There are 3 reasons behind the change:

1) Dinner guy

We went out often for lunch or breakfast since the dinner event,got to know each other better and once or twice ended up in his bed (Sue me,I love sex).

The last time we met was on 28/11.We were enjoying the after sex glow,just cuddling in each others arms and talk about stupid stuff when he asked the "golden question" of what lies in our future. I stopped fondling his hair and got up and began slurping my Slurpee after which I just made a dumb excuse to leave his place.When we said goodbye,the look on his face was damm sad,its like I just had stabbed him.

Then he msged me asking my reply for his question. Well,I think uolls know what my reply is rite.

2) Mirc guy

He's from Miri,trying to get a job in the Klang Valley. We met up as frens in Mirc but ending up a bit more than frens.His term for it is "teman tp mesra" Again Lust got the better of me and we end up doing you know what.

I mean who couldn't resist his advances,he just knew which buttons to push. Sigh,in a nutshell,he was perfect but he has a single flaw,he doesn't want monogamy.He has 3 bfs and a dozen scandals.

Maybe its just me but I think that in gay relationships,trust and loyalty play a big role no matter if its a LDR or SDR. Just imagine if ur like him, having scandals all over the place while ur Bf sits at home,waiting for u and saving himself for u. Do u think that ur being fair to him?

Sure,I can tahan being his 4th but my jealousy would get control of my head one day and would demand that I'll be the only one for him and vice verse. (S2D2)

3) Uitm Gal

I met this gal in frenster around last year,she is a good girl,wearing tudung and all. She knew that I'm gay cos of my personal info in Frenster but it didn't bother her at all. Sure,there are days when I'm too gay for her but she didn't question of why I became gay etc.To date,she is one of 2 girls who really accepted my gayness.

Anyway,to cut the story short,she told me that she is willing to accept me as a husband despite all of the warnings I gave to her. I was happy but sad at the same time cos I know myself super well and if I accept her invitation,I'll end up destroying her. So I said no and walked away.

My thoughts:

Many would think that I'm being choosy or picky about who to love.Once my fren had lamented that I'm stupid to ignore those who love me and trying to seek the impossible like guy no2.

Its hard to explain the matters of the heart and dick.... Would you pick a normal steak over a Kobe steak? Btw both are on the buffet. I'm sure that u'll pick the Kobe.

As for now,my heart is out of limits.Maybe till I grad or I might extend it. Being in love and being in lust is 2 different things but for the last 2 years,I kept mixing them up,mistaken Love for Lust and Lust for Love.

Lemme relax for a while,Lemme enjoy and smell the roses and Lemme settle my needs before I entertain others.

Honey and Clover

Takemoto: If I were to lose.I'd rather lose to

compassion and honor that money and talent......

Morita: Talent? ...... What talent?Everyone arbitrarily hates,loves and curses

others for that.And in the end,they all quietly drift apart

If u know me well,I'm a sucker for those Shounen and Yaoi animes but recently I found a new anime titled Honey and Clover which is about Uni life,friendships and relationships.

The anime has 2 seasons and those Anime-haters could watch the live action drama which is adapted from the manga. ( The actors are cute).

The main characters of the anime are:

1)Takemoto-san
2) Hagu-chan
3) Yamada-chan
4) Morita-san
5) Shu sensei
6) Mayama-san

All of them are frens and studying art at a prestigious Uni. Hagu is Shu-sensei's cousin who loks a little girl. Shu,Morita and Takemoto are in love with Hagu while Yamada loves Mayama who loves Rika-chan.And lastly,Nomiya loves Yamada.

The theme of the anime is simple which is about LIFE. All of them believe that life is like a honey and clover sandwich,sumtimes its sweet and sumtimes its bitter but u need to finish eating it so u could taste how delicious it is.

The other theme is about Uni life.They always say that in Uni,u discover ur true self,u'll know ur strengths and weakness and try to overcome it to be a better person.

The anime also discussed about how the ppl divide themselves into 2 grups which are the talented grup and the non-talented grup. The talented grup is given high accolades and they seem to live in a different world while the non-talented grup is envious of talented grup and search for their own niche to show the world that they also deserve the accolades.

This anime is damm nice,at one moment,u'll laugh at the characters antics,the next moment,u'll cry together with them. The songs that is in the anime is also quite beautiful and successfully bring out the inner msgs of the anime.




Ps: For more info about the anime,pls google or wiki it.
Pps: U'll need a lot of tissues if u want to watch so keep a spare box of tissue near u.

Belated meet

I met up with Lil prince last Sunday at Gavilion after being asked to fly kite 3x. As usual, he was late and forgot to bring my stuff again. (See,what I have to put up with).

Anyway,the aim of the meet up was to celebrate his bday,as most of u know he was kinda busy with exams during his bday period. Kesian die,turned 21 without breaking any rules.

We had lunch at Pizza Hut.The service there was sub-standard. The crew can't speak proper English and the orders were late. I was amazed at how Pizza hut could pick that crew to work at a posh place.If I were the higher-ups,I would send them to work in somewhere Ulu like Bukit
Raja. (1st reason of being pissed).

We even had problems changing our orders. Is it so hard to change chicken meatballs to Deli wings? ( 2nd reason of being pissed).

I sorta surprised him with a key pendant and a Dome's Chocolate Mousse cake. I do hope that he loved the surprises.

Then,he went to invest some stocks in u know where. That's when disaster struck. He left my present on the ledge where u normally put stuff before you start to invest. And guess what happened to the present? He forgot to put it back in his jeans after finishing doing his investing. After 10 mins,he realised that the present was still in the cubicle so he rushed back only to find that some bastard took it. (3rd reason of being pissed)

Inside I was fuming de,so fucking angry at the bastard.Dahlah,the lunch was crap. Then some blady cheapo bastard stole my ah ti's bday present. I know the box made it look exquisite but the locket was less than rm 50. Whylah,u didn't steal the more expensive stuff that's is laying around the mall. But after looking at Lil prince's face,I just bottled up the anger inside.

All in all,only 3 things that managed to put a smile on my face on that day: 1) Meeting up with Lil prince after so long,2) Taylor's hot bod,3) stopped and asked a buff gay stranger for directions to Sungei Wang plaza.

Note to self: Will never go to Gavilion ever again.Not even for a buff Taylor and his pack.

Ps: watching porn was better that watching New Moon but don't give up on the saga just yet,Eclipse will be filled with action.

It starts with the letter "F"

Have you ever wondered why it comes in various shapes,colours and sizes or why it sumtimes floats or why sumtimes its easy to come out and sumtimes u'll break a sweat cajoling it to go out?

The human feces is wonderful thing. It reflects the state of ur inner body system and sumtimes its the center point of pun or its a taboo to speak about.

What does SHIT made out? Its the waste product of the body. Our diet and health affects its appearance.

There 7 types of SHIT:



Type 1 and 2 indicates constipation. Type 3 and 4 are ideal while type 5,6,7 indicates diarrhea.


There are also 3 main colorings of SHIT:

1) Yellow

Its caused by an infection known as Giardaisis (caused by a protozoan parasite) or a sign of Gilbert's Syndrome.

2) Black

Its caused by the presence of blood in the shit which is caused by peptic ulcer or by Hematochezia. Certain food sources like bluberries or black pudding or even sweets and medicines could cause it. Alcholism could also turn it into red-black.

3) Blue

It is caused by Prussian blue used in treatment of radiation Cesium or Thallium poisoning.

Its buoyancy is caused by the amount of fat contained in the stool. And finally,if u want to avoid spending hours in the toilet,do drink more water and eat more fiber.

Below is a guideline 2 check whether ur shit is Healthy

Purpose

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing.

Someone asked me was my purpose of LIVING during lunch today. I was speechless cos I didn't expected that he'll ask these type of questions. Although,I gave him a short reply,otw back home,the question kept invading my mind.

Seriously,what do we live for? Each of us will give a different answer depending on their status. Rich guys would say that their purpose is to be even richer,politicians would say that their purpose to garner more support,sages would simply say that their purpose is to gain understanding of the world.

Ok2,I'm beating the bush.

Seriously,What do I live for?

Not for work cos I'll retire someday
Not for studying cos my brain might start to decay
Not for my frens/children cos someday I'll be sleeping under 7 feet of soil alone and in darkness
Not for love cos in death,we part.

The answer is simple but hard to comprehend. I live in order to leave a legacy,not matter how small or how large my impact on others,I'll be happy if someone said," Ichi taught me this once or Ichi had encouraged me or Ichi had advised me or Ichi had said that" to some else.

I know that dying is lonely business and we'll be become nutrients for others sooner or later but I do hope I'll live forever in the minds of ppl that I will or had touched. Maybe that's why I choose to blog about the future,the present and the past so that others would learn from my mistakes or heed my sayings or simply learn something new when they read my posts.

I also wish that each day,I can put a smile on the faces on ppl that I love and care and help to lighten their burden.

Yes,these are my purpose of living........

Hidden gem pt 2

The other day,I posted pics of cute malay guy.This time around,I'm going to intro a cute chinese guy.

Name: Jing
Age: 17-18
Location: Batu Pahat
Occupation: Student @ Chinese High school
Orientation: Still experimenting

Meet me halfway

The thing that I hate the most is WAITING. I don't care what the scenario is,I simply hate waiting.

Why do I hate WAITING?

Well,1st of all,I'm a planner sort of guy,I plan things especially events that could affect my working schedule,studying schedule and lastly,my "me" time. Of cos there times when I follow the flow. By making me wait,ppl actually disrupt my time to do other things which I hate to reschedule it.

2nd, making ppl to wait for others is actually rude and shows how much u value them. I know its a rather subtle gesture but that's the reality of it. Presidents,Kings and other VIPs make others wait to show their importance to the court.

3rd,as some of u,I'm taking a life science subject and my uni schedule conflicts with other unis' schedule especially the IPTAs,so when the IPTAs are having their sem-break,I'm having classes.Therefore,I'll have a ton of stuff to do.But if I could spare time for others,shouldn't u have the same courtesy?

Personally,I value 3 things in friendship which are loyalty,trustworthiness and punctuality.But of cos,I'm no saint but I will inform the other party if I'm late and also tell them the estimated time of my arrival so that they wouldn't wait for long.

Below is a scenario on how I deal with ppl who don't appreciate Time:

This happened during my secondary years. I was to meet a fren at KL sentral.This guy has a habit of arriving late so I told him that I'll be arriving at 1 but actually my arrival time is 1.30 to compensate his lateness. Smart rite but unfortunately,he is even smarter.At 1.30,he called me and said that he's otw,expected to arrive in 20 mins.

After 20 mins,he called again and said that he's arriving in 20 mins. He repeated the same msg once more.On hearing this stupid msg again,I told him that its ok,he can take his sweet time and come. By the time,he arrived,I'm already halfway back.

Oh yeah,another queer habit of mine is to give a person 3 chances and after the 3rd chance been wasted,I will not contact u anymore.

Desert

Many ppl would say that when u have probs or kept thinking about stuff that you can't do about,its best to make urself preoccupied with other stuff.After all,the idle mind is the devil's playground.

Well,according to pshrinks out there,those who avoid solving their probs and try to bury themselves with other stuff are actually in denial. What good u get,if u bury one prob with another.Slowly the problems would suck u in.Its better if u spend time trying to solve the prob one by one.

So how you can solve the problems? Its actually quite easy,it begins with u accepting that u have a prob.

Then,head out into the desert aka solitude. Why do u need to this? Well,in the desert,u'll find the purest water source rite? So when ur in solitude,ur purest thoughts on the prob will emerge.These thoughts are without any outside input or influences,they are all urs. Of cos,negative thoughts will come but sumtimes these thoughts are insightful. These negative thoughts appear for a reason.

Next step is to talk about it,confront the source of ur prob,let it be ur boss or bf. Always give the other party a chance to defend themselves and think about their explanation. Does the explanation make sense?Does the other party keeps repeating the same thing again and again?

Lastly,make a stand on the issue and make sure that the other party gets the msg.

If all the above doesn't work, be brave enuff to walk out of the door and close it forever.

Impromptu

Last nite,I supposed to blog about my day out and the job discussion together but I had to do sumting else with sum1 else so I stopped with the job discussion thing.

Last Saturday,I was supposed to go and have lunch with the SISTAHS but unfortunately I can't so yesterday,I invited all to lunch at Qasih (located behind Tesco Extra). The spread looked yummy but since the gals were late,we had limited choice of food to pick from. A word of caution,if u want to eat there make sure that u can tahan pedas cos the food is cooked ala Minang. Even I had to drink 2 glasses of water.

The Impromptu part starts here........

After lunch,we went out to Quality Hotel for a karaoke session. It was relatively cheap if u compared it to Redbox and the rooms are comfy.Each of us paid rm 11 je for 2 hours,free flow of drinks and crackers and fruits. The crackers and fruits are compulsory,kinda lame.

Anyway,we had a blast of a time. We sang,serenaded,danced and drank to our hearts content.








After the session,I went to work and played SUDOKU for 5 hours.(Did I tell uolls that I'm a nerd?)

At 11 pm,I got a call from a unimate asking whether I could get Dafi to perform in a charity event that my batch is organizing. I was like WTF. Luckily,I got friends in the entertainment business so I kinda have a few singers lined up.

I'm not complaining about the event but pls don't expect ppl to clean ur shit every time.

At 1 am,I went out with the guy who invited me to his uni dinner. I actually met him a day before but we were just going all around Shah Alam to do our errands. Finally,someone to bug while I wait for my number to be called. (yeah,I HATE WAITING TOO).

He asked me why I was so down and kept ignoring his smses and calls.I told him everyting that happened. Lucky for me,he's a good listener......

And that concludes my list of events on Tuesday.

Life after Grad

I was talking to a few ppl about life after graduation. Most said that getting a job in the Biomed field is tough and a degree in Biomed is worthless unless u pursue a Masters. A few of them were talking about venturing into other fields like education or finance.

These kind of talks make me kinda uneasy cos the world is changing rapidly,during my primary school years,the hype was about IT,then during my secondary school years,that bubble burst and ppl are talking about Bio-stuff (there is Bio-informatics,Bio-cybernetics and the list goes on and on,just add Bio to any word and u get a new field of study). But u have to remember that this hype is fueled by the Government so if the Govt decides to focus on sumting else,we're screw. The only job that I think is secure is being Doctor,everyone is a patient.

So far,the Job Opportunities that I had gathered is:

1) Working in Labs or Hospitals

My time spent studying would be worth it. I'll get the exposure and experience that I need to go further into the field. I'll also get a chance to get a doctor as a husband.Mum would be so proud. The downside is I'll get a smaller starting pay if I work in the hospitals but I'll get allowances and other Govt. freebies.

2) Working in the army(Medical Corps)

Almost the same cons and pros as the above but as least I'll be Captain and I can see those askars.Yummy. The pay and the allowances are quite tempting but I'll be living in the camp and have minimum choices in the work postings.

3) Working in other unrelated fields

I'll get higher pay and experiences. Although its unrelated but I still can improve myself and have a better understanding of the world. The pay is bigger.Eg. working in banks,u'll get a starting pay of rm 3 k but u need to go for courses and all that.

Being a teacher is also quite ok but I heard nowadays,MOE is accepting those who has a degree in teaching only. So I need to study for another a year or 2.

Its funny now that I realized how demand and supply works,too much of fresh grads,too little jobs openings. So far these are the work options that I have,my decision is pending as I have 1 year more to go. I have to rethink later when I get the scroll as the world changes too rapidly.

Maybe,I can work at the lorongs? :)

Kulturny

The other day,I was watching AFC,there is this show that discusses about how farm animals are unjustly treated. For example,they encouraged the purchase of free range chicken over force-fed chicken.

The funny thing is the show reminded me of how the Russian elite treated their comrades or foreigners during the soviet era. For an example,a general could shed tears while watching a opera but has the heart to send the mother of AWOL guy to Siberia or the treatment of those ppl who were put into the gulag.

To me,a chicken is chicken,a fish is a fish,a cow is a cow,it doesn't matter how it was being bred as long as I could eat it.What matters is how I treat my fellow humans. I mean who cares if u treat the animal that is to be slaughtered with the highest respect but u can't spare a dime for the beggar down the street.

Its funny when u see where civilization had brought us,we are caring more about the animals than our fellow humans these days.

Another reason why I don't support this effort is its expensive.Don't believe me,go to the nearest hypermarket and judge it urself. U can sometimes buy 2 of the normal chicken instead of buying one of free-range chicken.

Here's an advice from me,if u want to do some good,stop buying products like the above mentioned and allocate the extra cash to charities and if u still have spare,give it to me,I'll help u to spend it.

Toxic

Last nite,as I was on the way to dreamland,I got a call from Adam who is a close fren of mine when I was staying in Spore. He is one of few frens who still keep in touch with me thru emails and YM.

He was surprised at the things I wrote in my blog for the past year.According to him,I'm consistently sinking and he was angry at how I'm handling stuff. He said that I have changed a lot this past 4 yrs,getting too emo and all. He said how can a mountain be reduced into sand this quickly. He was also angry at me not trusting the gang to help me out.

I admit that this year's theme for me is "EMO",nothing seems to be right,the things I touch often break. His words reminded me the time I was away from Home. Strangely,I was happy not being with my family.(does this make sense?).

Last nite, I got a jolt,a butt kick and a tight slap from him all in one hour. The chat was super duper honest,Adam is sort that would say his mind out without minding the outcome and to tell the truth,I needed that.

The chat made me realised 3 things:

1) The relationship between me and my dad is toxic. It is actually killing the relationships that I built with other ppl.

2) I have trust issues. I don't trust ppl enuff since that incident with sum1. I'm being so needy emotionally.

3) I'm internally stable as my judgements are still clear,all the probs that I'm having are externally which involves other ppl.

To my fellow readers,I'm sorry that u guys have to read all my emo posts for the past year. This blog wasn't meant for venting out my frustration but somehow it became an emo blog. This blog is suppose to reflect on how I think of myself and the world. This post marks the end of me being emo. Wish me luck.

Ps:" being happy and sad is part and parcel of life. U can't stop living just becos of an bad experience. The best you could do is never to be stuck at the same quagmire the next time," said Adam.

Porn is evil.

My home Internet connection is currently being disabled by my Saintly Dad. I don't know whether its a temporary thing or its going to be permanent. Either way,both suck. The reason being it was my dad saw some porn sites listed in the history of the browser. Before,u guys kena heart attack,let me assure u that those sites are catered to straight porn.

My Saintly Dad now accuses me of watching straight porn which I did not watch or even click at. So the only person that I could think of is my 15th bro. But its not as clear cut as that,my Saintly Dad said that how can my bro watch porn cos he is quite the religious type. My inner voice said," Dad,didn't u watch the news recently. These religious type are so pent up that they either have the most number of children or are sexs offenders."

To me,its a small thing. I mean Porn gives married men and those in couple an excuse to watch another woman's parts,for gay guys,its a boon.Its not like my bro or me are having sexs with ppl under his nose or whatever. I mean we are as good as childern come,we don't smoke,don't go out unless we have his permission and we get good grades.CUT US SOME SLACK LAH.

Another thing is he is a hypocrite,I found his stash of porn once and its a big stash.

Sometimes,when I talk to other parents about my dad,they would say that he's lucky and stupid. I really don't know how to communicate with him anymore. When I'm being a good son,he would push my patience further by imposing more rules and when I'm being a bad son,he would start to spread my evil doing to his frens.

Every time that I confront him,he'll say that its his house so what he says goes.

Every sem,I hope it would be my last sem so that I could work and get out. And every time,things between us go south,I would think of quitting my studies and work.

What do you think I shuld do to save my mind?

Ps: I'll try to go to CC everyday.